Happy New Year – 1 January 2010

A loving heart is always young!

My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires – so be it!

It is the first day of a New Year – a new decade. To add some extra vim to this fresh moment in time it is also a Full Moon lunar eclipse (6:12am AEST – read Harlequin’s Haven: http://www.jestacom.biz/newsite/ezine/harlequin_s_haven.htm

It is a number five day – a day of changes so time is ripe to make decisions that will change your life – even if it is in subtle ways.

Prior to this moment I have been saying that this year will be different to last year. Or, on some occasions I’ve touted that I don’t want another year like last year. Of course I didn’t mean that entirely as there were some (many) positive aspects of last year there were satisfying and even memorable. On the other hand there were disappointing aspects. My view is that, once we are aware of the negative aspects then we should do our darndest to change them, right? And if we are not able to change them then take a different route to our perfect destination.

When the moon is full and the intensity of the eclipse surrounds us then it is opportune to send your wishes out into the Universe with a higher voltage. This can be done with the focus or intent of a spell or a rhyme. One of those rhymes I’ve said was: "If wishes were horses, then beggars would ride, and rich man and poor man in peace would abide." To compliment these words it is a good day to wear moonstone and be very mindful of what you think, say and do. Remember is it all about energy.

Most of us start the New Year with goals, wishes and resolutions. Like you I have a few on my list. I guess they could come under the umbrella of health, wealth and happiness. I’ve included this list as a way of encompassing some of the focus of these positive statements. I hope you can find something relevant for you:

Instructions for life

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s: respect for self, respect for others and responsibility for all of your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship
7. When you realise you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.
10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation of your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. It is the way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.
17. Remember the best relationship is one which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

One certainty I’ve included on my list is that I focus on love. A loving heart is always young, also love heals fear. This year I wish for more love in the world. I hope you are willing to join me in that desire.

Love, Peace and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Happy End Year

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of all providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this Truth is unlimited that is my supply is unlimited. So be it!

Yes that’s right, it is the last day of 2009 and what have you done? Has it been a good year? Have you learned more about yourself? Have you grown spiritually, emotionally and possibly even financially?

Yasmin Boland, the brilliant Aussie astrologer asks us to consider give thanks for this ear – consider all of the blessings and give thanks. I am totally with her on this suggestion. And that is exactly what I’ve done this morning – given thanks for the year that was 2009.

I have so much to be grateful for – and I hope you have too. Take a few moments (just as I have done) and consider what you would like to leave behind. I have written down some aspects of this year that I choose to leave behind. Tonight I will write those parts of the year down on a piece of paper and then ceremoniously light a match and burn the remnants of 2009 that I do not wish to carry with me into 2010.

We are now on the final step of the year and reflection and graciousness are important. Why? Well, I believe it is part of living consciously – in the now. Also, being grateful suggests that we’ve there and done that and therefore do not need a rerun instead we’ve brought the t-shirt and sent the postcards.

The High Priestess interrogates deep into my psyche – yes the road is uncertain but you have the compass that will guide you toward the ultimate destination.

The Emperor bellows from atop Mount Olympus. Don’t forget the water bottles as you journey into the dark forest.

Nourish yourself with the glow of the wheel of fortune; the golden talisman that will light each step of your journey. The prize will be the accomplishment of lessons learned and a wry smile.

I casting the final glance of our shoulder consider preserving your integrity. Have you lived with integrity? In silence, we most readily preserve our integrity. Our soul thrives on silence. From deep inside, you receive your most certain guidance and instruction. In silence, you are without distractions. This is why we fear silence – we fear its power. Enjoy quiet meditation today.

Allow the seeds of your future germinate in the rich soul of your imagination.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

The joy of being you – at home with you!

Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my Source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very subconscious of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply.

Have you ever been first up in the morning and the quietness of the house pulls you into a different realm? Have you ever wandered around the house whispering a chant of peace, love and happiness? Well, I have!

Metaphysically speaking our home represents our souls. Apparently our car is symbolic of our journey through life. The home though is akin to Nirvana for our soul. Keeping this in mind, I’ve wandered around my brother’s home connecting with and respecting his soul. Suffice to say, his soul is open, loving, warm, compassionate and generous. It is a comfy cozy place and I feel safe.

Last night I watched Atonement. It was an interesting movie filled with a myriad of life lessons; the major lesson being seeking atonement for our greatest sin. Is it judgment, fear, control, abuse, loving someone too much or too little? None of us are perfect that is obvious. We are humans after all. And we arrive on planet earth with our insecure souls and brave hearts and attempt to navigate the maze of life with our internal compass of course we encounter a few wicked witches and goblins along the way. One door closes and another one opens and a new lesson begins.

My question is, do we ever reach atonement? Are we at home with our souls? Do we ever forgive our sins? Or are we the most abusive to ourselves? Do we carry our guilt around like some malevolent monster that crouches within waiting for the next poor unsuspecting creature to cross our paths, and then what? What must we do then? Free-will and choice are top of the agenda. The decision is entirely yours and mine at the perfect moment. I guess the most enduring question remains; can we seek and find the joy of being you?

It’s a number eight day – of balance and harmony. It is also the second last day of the year. It is a good time to consider our actions/reactions and lessons to leave behind in 2009. This notion is supported by the influence of the analytical Gemini Moon.

I’ve stepped into a new lunar return today so the focus has shifted from my Moon in the eighth to my Moon resting in my second house. This shift is represented by the sale of my former home in Coffs Harbour and the promise of those funds trickling into my bank account in the New Year. Marvelous!

The morning spread reveals an interesting tale. The Tower suggests, be prepared for the unexpected. Justice represents contracts and fair mindedness in pursuit of balance. Death closes the door on the current phase. And the Devil relinquishes the chains of oppression. The Star is my guiding light as I close the chapter of my former life. I am naked and vulnerable in my journey toward atonement – pouring the wisdom from lessons learned from the vessel on my shoulder.

Contracts will be signed on the dotted line. Signatures filed and money exchanged to seal the deal. Not it’s time to say goodbye to a safe repository for my soul. I arrived in Coffs Harbour just over a decade ago. I purchased this magnificent town house in a prime jetty location. The home was filled with love, healing and angelic presence as I channeled these energies into my practice. I shared the healing modalities with friends and patients and became the healer and teacher for many students. This home (or that vessel for my soul) was a place of love, kindness and transformation. Now that chapter is closed.

While that home represented my soul at that time I am not restricted to that address. I take my education and healing heart to another place where I constantly share and give of myself.

I am grateful for the love, guidance and protection and most of all, the experiences of that former abode. Now, I release the address and the energy to the new owners of that home. As I turn and walk around the beauty of my brother’s home I realise that we are blessed in so many ways more specifically the transient nature of the remnants of our souls. We are able to collect them and carry them with us as we adventure into every crevice of our dreams. We carry inside our hearts the true meaning of our home.

The soul is on earth for its own delight. Consider this amazing possibility: you incarnated on this earth just to experience the joy of being alive. Do you even know what gives you joy? Do something about it today!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Spiritual ideals

I am conscious of the Inner presence as my lavish Abundance. I AM conscious of the constant activity of this mind of infinite Prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the Light of Truth.

We are winding down the covers of 2009. Already there is talk on the street about the New Year. Sure celebrations are uppermost in conversations however I’m also hearing questions posed, “so what is in store for you in the New Year?”

While I consider goals for 2010 and think about where my life or my path may lead me I am also very focused on what is happening in this moment. I don’t want to miss a second or pass by one perfect smile or capture the individual curl of each lash as it caresses the pure stare of my lover’s eye.

Today is a number seven day – a day of inner reflection. The numerological cycles asks us to consider – what is going on inside. It is important to be aware of what you project to the world but what is happening on the inside? I like this phase in numerology because it is like a litmus test to our soul. The questions to consider are couched in phrases such as: “how am I feeling? What am I thinking? How do my thoughts reflect my inner world I am living in? What am I creating?”

Sure we get a glimpse on the answers to these questions when we face reality (e.g. outcomes of these questions) Are we happy? Are people happy with us? Are we living our truth? Is our soul comfortable – easy and uncluttered or are we constantly struggling between our desires and the mayhem of our existence?

In contemplation my hypotheses is based primarily on the intention I convey into the world. Then the analysis is calculated via reactions from who love me unconditionally? Then I factor in such data as: “Am I a good daughter, wife, mother, sister, niece, friend, co-worker, human being?” In some respects I can get a tick – yes, your are projecting nice, caring, compassionate qualities and others are a little neutral.

One tick I know for sure is that today especially I am being a good niece. Why am I so certain? Well, it because I am taking my aunty out to lunch and bring my husband and brother along – so I think that counts as a tick – don’t you? Furthermore I think that this visit comes close to achieving a spiritual trifecta. I don’t know for sure as I believe that we are all winners.

Hermes the magician manifests an effortless transition between worlds. He promises a magical day filled with fun and surprises.

Venus stands in the garland of abundance – lift your mind and heart and reap the reward of plenty which will fill your soul with joy.

The Sun shines on the garden of opportunity – music, good food and the cherubs dance to a mystic tune. As you give to another so shall you receive pleasure and gratification?

The Moon embraces my natal Gemini home state. This light bright breezy silver orb is the beacon of my emotional realm. The Capricorn sun is my foundation, the stars light my path but the moment enchants and carries me along to the beat of my own tune.

My spiritual ideals are uppermost today and an area of my life is highlighted. I believe that health promotes spirituality, and spirituality promotes health. I invite you to choose one spiritual truth and live fully in harmony with it today. Observe how challenging it is to let your physical life be in concert with your spiritual ideals.

If this does not work for you then perhaps we can handle you with care?

Been beat up and battered 'round
Been sent up, and I've been shot down
You're the best thing that I've ever found
Handle me with care

Reputations changeable
Situations tolerable
Baby, you're adorable
Handle me with care

I'm so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Won't you show me that you really care

Everybody's got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on

I've been fobbed off, and I've been fooled
I've been robbed and ridiculed
In day care centers and night schools
Handle me with care

Been stuck in airports, terrorized
Sent to meetings, hypnotized\Overexposed, commercialized
Hand me with care

I'm so tired of being lonely
I still have some love to give
Won't you show me that you really care

Everybody's got somebody to lean on
Put your body next to mine, and dream on

I've been uptight and made a mess
But I'll clean it up myself, I guess
Oh, the sweet smell of success
Handle me with care

George Harrison
Traveling Wilburys

Peace and Love,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

The road to where?

I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence I Am is the source and substance of all my good.

The Moon is in Practical Taurus and the Sun compliments with pragmatic Capricorn. It’s a number six day which is excellent for planning and organising. Already this morning hubby and I have talked about our plans for today and possibly for the rest of the week. It seems that there is rain now however in the latter part of the week it is expected to be sunny. So, we will do some movies and shopping for my new grand-daughter today and early on while the rain hovers.

I don’t mind the rain at all. As I said yesterday, it is nourishing for the earth and wonderful to hear. It is just that we are in a beachy part of Oz and therefore at a place where sand, surf and sun all combine to make summertime bliss.

At the moment it is more about being in the Now for me. Enjoying what is on offer and loving the bliss of freedom at prime holiday time. The smell of the ocean is intoxicating – I can feel it swirl around me licking at my aura – enticing me to romp among the shells and dolphins. The lavish ambience entwines my senses – sight, sound, touch and smell. You are here – you are free – relax and Be.

I’ve rested over the past few days. We have grazed on nuts and fruit and sprinkled with chocolate delicious into the mix. I guess it’s all about balance and harmony. At times desiring the forbidden delicacies and yet being faithful to my inherent nature to sup at the banquet of life.

The star reminds me of the brash repose to remain focused on your positive attributes – you don’t have to be exposed to be faithful to your optimum lifestyle.

The lovers are basking in the bliss of awareness and accord. There is no need for others to intrude upon this party for two.

Justice is stern and committed to the plan to find the perfect road to wander. Don’t lead for I will not follow. I tread my own path in my time – it takes me where I must go.

Instead, may I suggest that you tread the cobblestones of your future? Stay alert but with eyes closed. Walk into the dark and allow the spiritual umbilical take you to Utopia.  Say a prayer, “open a new road to me today, and expect the unexpected. When it appears accept the gift.

Follow your spiritual heart and don’t worry about the destination – it will appear in the perfect zone of your enlightened state.

Peace and Love

Julia Ashton-Sayers

A new grand-daughter born today

God is lavish, unfailing abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all-providing source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me – the Reality of me.

We have been notified that a new little grand-daughter has been born in the early hours of this morning. She is a new life – pure and beautiful entering the world with a Capricorn Sun and a Taurus Moon.

We are settled here in Nelson Bay. We’ve unpacked, shopped, set up some schedules for entertainment and socializing. We also made ourselves at home with routines for rest and rejuvenation and plans for fun and entertainment for the week. This is all very nice and holiday mode.

The weather is very grey and overcast – it is rainy and quite miserable. I am concerned that if I sit around I will be miserable and the mood of the day will flood my emotional world. For now though the rain is intoxicating and relaxing. I know it sounds weird but when you’ve lived in a drought, rain is music to your ears. I only hope it goes down south and across the drought regions of Australia where it is most needed.

I think of all the people who are unwell at this time of year. Illness is not a punishment, but a stimulant to life. Illness can be a teacher, companion, or challenge – but not a punishment. Still, sometimes its message isn’t clear. Ignore the illness. Look for stimulation in the knowledge that you can heal in an instant.

Drink the energy of the changing number five day and make the changes necessary to heal from within.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Boxing Day 2009

I keep my mind and thoughts of “this world” and I place my entire focus on God within as the only cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the inner presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance within me.

We are 10 days into our Prosperity Plan. Those ten affirmations must be repeated four times. Are you up for the journey? I know I am. I’ve already received the abundance wave roll into my life and I am totally committed to see the plan manifest in my life. I hope you are too. If abundance in 2010 is what you are seeking then stick with me and we’ll ride the ride together. I am positive that when we arrive on shore we will land in a beautiful and bountiful destination. Grab your board and keep paddling.

Today is a number four days - a day to lay foundations for the future weeks and months. It’s Boxing Day – the day after Christmas and I am sure that we are all feeling a touch guilty about the feasting that took place yesterday. In Oz it is prime summer time so, my plan is to step lively in the walking goes and dab on a little sunscreen and walk; walk; walk.

We arrived at Nelson Bay after breakfast at Mums with little Sis, a visit with the step-family for morning tea extraordinaire and a breezy trip up the free-way. A warm hugs welcome and the car unpacked we grooved the afternoon with some wine and nibbles – dangerous foods – but loads of fun. Although a fruit platter was placed beautifully on the table and we snacked on tropical fruits denying the need for a full meal. I’m not saying that dinner wasn’t offered it’s just that we were too full to consider another formal meal. We talked and laughed into the night. It was cathartic and joyous.

Today it is a little misty across this seaside town. We will don on the sandals and walk around filling our lungs with fresh sea breezes and ocean mists. I’m here for the rest and the healing aspect. I intend to regain my inner strength and determination in readiness of a new and brilliant year.

The wheel of fortune is the harbinger of such bounties. The wheel heralds a phase of abundance and good fortune. I am totally ready for the new number three year waiting behind the curtain ready to appear. The challenging aspects of 11/2 year are now fading with the festivities of Christmas cheer. It’s been a good year and I have a great deal to be thankful for. I have noted in my gratitude list many times during this year and now am ready to walk a new path with a gracious heart and loving soul.

The Sun shines brightly on my morning spread. I am intoxicated by the power of Apollo and his brilliant beams of love, joy and happiness.

The Lovers chime in perfect harmony – opposites attract and the challenge is to make them fit. Is it a challenge or is it fun? I am not sure as I believe that it one of the mysteries of life. Let’s explore the odyssey together?

Today and tomorrow I am free to wander where there is no path. There’s not time like the present to “get lost”. Realise that a path has many experiences: exploring creativity, indulging intuition, pursuing a relationship. Chose one and get lost on the pathless path today.

I hope you can get lost too. Enjoy the moment of splendor in your creativity and intuiton – we may just bump into each other along the way?

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

And so this is Christmas

When I am aware of the God-Self within me as my total fulfillment, I am totally fulfilled. I am now aware of this Truth. I have found the secret of life, and I relax in the knowledge that the Activity of the divine Abundance is eternally operating in my life. I simply have to be aware of the flow, the validation of that creative energy, which is continuously, easily and effortlessly pouring forth from my Divine Consciousness. I am now aware. I am now in the flow.

As you can see we are only one quarter the way through our prosperity plan. Actually we are only on day nine. After tomorrow (day 10) we will repeat these 10 affirmations three more times. This book is based on the law of cause and effect. And on day six of this commitment I sold my property in Coffs Harbour. This instant abundance will instantly and effortlessly reduce my debt and make life considerably easier. Let’s continue on this road and see what other fortunes we can manifest.

And so this is Christmas and what have you done? Another year over and a new ones just begun (John Winston Lennon). Today is a time of celebration, family, fun and sharing of energy. I am totally committed to all of the above. Actually, I started this endeavor yesterday as I caught up with my two grandsons. We swam, ate and opened up gifts from one branch of the family tree. It was a magical and uplifting day. I am delighted to say that we get lost in the moment. Nothing else mattered only the now! Enjoy the now!

It’s a number three day of communication and short journeys. We are having ham and cheese croissants at my Mum’s in Liverpool and then racing to have morning tea across Sydney with another part of the family. After that catch up we are driving north to Nelson Bay to begin our holiday and share a late Christmas lunch with my brother and his partner. So, can you see the energy of the number three? Tonight we will unpack rest and take a load off – ahhh!

The Moon in Aries is a fiery appeal. Today the Moon and Pluto are not compatible. So, if get a tie, sox or some ugly gift – just smile and say thank you  its not the day to say oh that was a useless gift – see the blessing in the effort and thought it took to given to you on this special day.

Remember, blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy. Mercy is a rare word, one hardly spoken. What are merciful actions? Not judging another, speaking with kind words; thinking compassionate thoughts about others. May acts of mercy come your way? Do you get my drift?

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Powerful remedy

The Divine Consciousness that I am is forever expressing its true nature of Abundance. My only responsibility is to be aware of this Truth. Therefore I am totally confident in letting go and letting God appear as the abundant all-sufficiency in my life and affairs.

Justice portends contracts. It’s time to finalise arrangements. We have a buyer for the house in Coffs – not let’s sign and get the deal done. The buyer has been supported by the vibe of the GFC and negotiated the deal down to the bones. My only focus is that the deal is done.

The Chariot hurtles me away from disappointment and the black hole of regret. Jump on board and you won’t remain stuck in the mock of another’s bad hair day. Time and time waits for no-one – its time to move on – catch the tide to a new location.

The Hermit is cautious and wise – ready to plod a familiar course. The daily rituals of my life have become a saving grace. I am diligent and resourceful – there is work to be done.

The Lovers are poised and perfect – captivated in each other’s presence. You’ve been living an illusion of discontent – its not necessary as you have so many brilliant tomorrows.

It’s a number nine day ideal for empowerment and resolution – a perfect interlude for letting god without regret and face the day of a new tomorrow.

The Moon in Pisces holds a Neptunian appeal. Love and mystery beckons. Intuition is finely tuned to the cosmos and the wise healer faces the future with zeal and does not regret a single word or action.

The labours are nearly done and its time to give birth to new conditions. The promise of a painless tomorrow holds a huge appeal. Let’s just make it through the final days of this year and start afresh in 2010.

May your heart sing and your soul rejoice? Experience the wonder of life. Celebrate all that is good and blessed about your life, realising that gratitude is a powerful remedy. Appreciating your blessings increases the vitality of your life force.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Forgiveness

My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience according to my needs and desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires.

Forgiveness is such a powerful act. It has been said that forgiveness will take you from being disempowered to empowerment. Once you forgive someone then they do not have a hold over you. This week I am working on forgiveness and in this simple (and yet extremely difficult act I will break free from the chains of oppression). Not only that it’s Christmas, isn’t it? Plus, the cosmos is supportive of this action.

Is it an action – yes it is! First you have to be aware that there is something to forgive. In the meantime you go through your roller coaster rides of this can’t be happening and then you realise, yes it is happening. Then you go, ouch that really hurts – you big bully. Then you go, oh poor you, why do you fear me so much? Your insecurity is a dark veil to your loveliness. Pettiness is poison and you have layered it into your aura.

Thank you for the insight into your soul. I forgive you. Now you can begin to heal as I choose to heal. Easy isn’t it? Nope! No one said it was going to be easy that is why people choose to stay stuck. But not me, I choose freedom, liberation and personal empowerment. My gift to myself is the awareness that I deserve better and the truth that comes from living the best life I possibly can. I owe it to myself. I honestly do. And you do too!

The Wheel of Fortune inspires a new phase of philosophical pursuits. Take the higher ground as it will be flooded with negativity and emotion down below. Don’t enter the game – just smile and say, thanks for sharing!

The Chariot will take you places you’ve only dreamed about. Life is too short to seek approval from those who don’t matter.

Prometheus hangs on the tree of life – he was willing to make the ultimate sacrifice – well good on him. I’m not! I don’t have a second to waste – ou can open the cage and fly away little blue bird – fly.

The World says the lessons are done you’ve learned them well this time – they won’t return again in this life time. There is not time to waste – just time to heal – turn toward forgiveness and the healing time will begin.

Forgiveness means more to God than sacrifice. Forgive on person today. Open your heart to that person, and release unnecessary suffering from the past. Feel the peace that follows from this simple act.

So Be It!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

You’ve got to have friends!

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, understanding and knowledge of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this Truth is unlimited; therefore, my supply is unlimited.

The gentle tinkles of my wind chimes remind me of the subtleness of the movement of time. Time heals they say. I agree wholeheartedly. However, it is up to us to make tiny subtle changes to facilitate that healing process. If we change on tiny aspect of our thinking/behaviour then the ripple effect will take place and before you know it you’ve landed in a new dimension.

The Moon is the friendship house of Aquarius. Aquarius rules the 11th house of friends and associations. This is an airy sign which is a relief after the earthy and pragmatic sing of Capricorn. Aquarius reminds us about the importance of friends.

Last night I was delighted by the joyous energy of my friends. We talked, laughed and shared so many stories of distasteful situations and imbued them with new and colourful perspectives. The spectrum of our conversations peppered the evening with a brilliant lustre that has sustained until the morning light.

My friends offered wisdom, support, unconditional loving, and respect; most importantly they were wonderful. Thank you, my dear and beautiful friends you make my world a more sunny and sparkly place. I love and honour you so much!

Other than the brilliant company of my friends my husband demonstrated his love and affect by surpassing any master chef with his command of his culinary skills. He was unreal. We ate our meal in perfect time and with glitz and glamour of a high class restaurant. Oh what a night!

Today is a little garden time, coffee date with my main man but first appointment in my diary is a massage. A deep healing and lovely massage; lLife is beautiful – isn’t it? Enjoy your day – your way!

And remember, God gives you only the present, moment by moment. How much of your present day do you invest in the past? Everything from your pas except wisdom and love has long since served its purpose. Witness what calls to you from yesterday and why.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

You are my world!

Through my consciousness of my God-Self, the Christ within, as my Source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the Presence of God within me is my supply.

It is Saturday – thank God! Have you ever had one of those weeks when you’ve though, oh my God why was I born? Well I have! And guess what? I survived! Not only that, I still have my sense of humour. Sometimes I wonder, why does it have to be so hard?

I suppose all the lessons learned, processed and light bulbs going off are a measure of how I am tracking in life. Don’t you agree? Not very good apparently wait a minute is that my measuring stick or someone else’s?

The Hermit advised caution – watch where you are walking pot holes and dog poo are dangerous obstacles, don’t you know? One you could loose yourself in and the other well, the smell might stay with you for the rest of your life. Who would love you then?

The Star shines brightly in my reading this morning. She is brilliant and poised and in some respects very wise. “You’ve got nothing to hide, child,” she counsels. You know how to deal with the entire spites in the world. Don’t lift the lid until you are prepared to deal with the venomous taunts and the mischievous petty back biting.

The world is my truth. I am here. I am incredible. I am loving and wise. I may not tattle-tale and I may have to suck it up and deal with it but I have a whole other world to retreat into – a world that is loving and respectful and most importantly, unconditional.

It’s a number six day of commitment and responsibility. Take responsibility for your actions don’t delay and whatever you do – don’t walk away until you are ready to do so. Life is hard enough – don’t beat yourself up – not ever! There are plenty of abusers out there that will surely do that for you!

Instead, let the beauty you love be what you do. We often blind ourselves to beauty precisely because it inspires us to go beyond ourselves.

Today, find only beauty, especially when your first instinct is to be critical of someone, something, or some opportunity.

When you enter that world of beauty own it; trust it; lavish yourself with compliments and respect and make it your world. Put up a sign, “trespassers will be prosecuted and nasty people shall not enter!”

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Delightful

I am conscious of the Inner Presence as my lavish abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this mind of Infinite Prosperity. Therefore my consciousness is filled with Light of Truth.

It’s a number five day – a day of changes. The Moon stabilises in Capricorn. We are about to leave the sunny terrain of Sagittarius and move into the more goal oriented Capricorn. Our focus will shift from philosophy, long distance travel and freedom to more business focused mountain climb.

So how does that fit with the Christmas celebrations? How come Capricorn is around Christmas when the credit card is having its numbers worn off and the shops are laded with yummy goodies? Well, Capricorn is ruled by Saturn – father time who suggests that we seriously consider the impact of these purchases on our financial stability for the next year. Ho Ho Ho!

The Lovers seek balance and communication. By the way, did we all have a good night last night? Remember – Venus and Mars? Well, Death is the reality check – kick it to the kerb if it aint working for you! The Chariot will whisk you away – new destinations and movement of a emotionally fulfilling phase. The Magician offers the tools for change and liberation.

Friendliness, compassion and delight cultivate a calm mind. Practice the healing power of a compassionate mind. Open your heart to the people without judgement and radiate the message of delight at having them in your life.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Venus and Mars are alright tonight

I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the Divine Presence that I AM is the Source and Substance of all my good.

Sometimes I am amazed at the profound and intuitive lyrics of Paul McCartney. I often wonder did he really tap into the Universal consciousness or did they (the words) sound good at the time and he went with that? One day I will have to ask him. I’ve read that some song writers claim a documentary of their lives with the words and concepts of their songs. If that is the case for Paul McCartney then tonight he is on the money – Venus and Mars are alright tonight.

The World enters my spread this morning as a reminder of the inherent wealth of my present state of being. I am centred and grounded in the knowledge that the wreath of abundance surrounds my existence.

Death is the end of a chapter of civil unrest and the mask of disillusionment. Take off the mask and reveal your inner truth.

The Fool ushers in the new phase of fresh ideas and enlightenment. Travel with the experience of your soul – the knowledge is fathomless = the rewards – unlimited.

It is a number four day of building solid foundations for the future. The shifting sands of my security have been cracked by false prophecies and the shoddiness of discontent. My future is stable and strong and I am focused and resolute. I shall not bend to the wind and the seduction of the tall grass out of the rim of my consciousness. The energy of the four is comforting and solid – I feel content in the confines of my pragmatic realm.

It’s the festive season and the lead up to Christmas is a fun and high creative time. The soul is earth for its own delight. Consider this amazing possibility. You incarnated on this earth just to experience joy of being alive. Do you even know what give you joy? Do something about it today!

If you have your soul mate close by then snuggle up tonight with the sensual sounds of your favourite song like:

Paul McCartney Venus And Mars lyrics -

Sitting In The Stand Of The Sports Arena
Waiting For The Show To Begin
Red Lights, Green Lights, Strawberry Wine,
A Good Friend Of Mine, Follows The Stars,
Venus And Mars
Are Alright Tonight.


Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

The 40-day Prosperity Plan

Some years ago I picked up a little book called, The Abundance Book written by John Randolph Price. This little book is like a road map to the Land of Affluence within each of us. It is a journey of joy to that glorious realm of limitless certainties where every true desire is fulfilled.

I would like to share the Statements of Principle with you each day in my journal. I hope you enjoy the energy, joy and fun just as must as I do!

The first principle for today is:

God is lavish, unfailing Abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the Universe. This all-providing Source of infinite prosperity is individualised as me – the Reality of me.

The outrageously positive and gregarious new moon is the perfect time to plant seeds for the coming month. The suggestions for this planting are: http://www.jestacom.biz/newsite/ezine/harlequin_s_haven.htm Not only is Sagittarius an optimistic sign but the ninth house (Sadge’s home turf) is littered with philosophy, travel, higher learning and strategic vision. From my perspective Scorpio is the searcher within whereas Saggy is the seeker without – without limitations. The old Sadge song, “don’t fence me in” first nicely with their philosophy of life.

It’s a number three day of communication and short journeys. The time is ripe for planting seeds (setting goals) under this fertile new phase of the Moon.

The Lovers represent communication shared ideas – balance, love and harmony which is uppermost on my subconscious hard drive.

Justice is discerning – not hurried or rash. She is not tolerant of game playing and the pettiness of bitchy bargaining – get on with it and don’t dilly-dally.

Death is the end. The final curtain and a augur of new beginnings.

The Devil releases the chains that bind your soul – it’s liberating when you don’t buy into the taunting from the troll.

Today the focus should be on the present – and immediate future. We are blessed with effervescent cosmic energies of the New Moon and Sun in Sagittarius. I guess it is the official start of the festive season – even though we began on 1 December.

Today and everyday may all creation dance for joy within you. All you want to do today is love being alive – even if it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done. Appreciate the sounds, sights, and sensations of your life; friends, books, ideas, sleep – just enjoy!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Give me hope – help me cope

I breathe in peace and breathe out fear. I breathe in peace and breathe out anger. I breathe in peace and breathe out doubt. I let the power of peace soothe my mind, heart and soul. I know that peace on Earth begins with me. And at the core of my being I am a radiant centre of peace, intelligence and joy!

11/2 day has a public/private feel to it – in some ways we can reach an agreement or agree to disagree.

There is a nice astro-combo today. The Sun and Neptune are sweet as cherry pie with sprinkles on top!

Justice supports agreement – after negotiation of course. After she has sliced away the layers of deception – what else is there? Reality? Perhaps?

The Emperor demands respect – take no prisoners as he strides to the top of Mount Olympus. It’s a great view up here and let’s face it – the air is much sweeter.

The Star has been stripped bare – there is nothing to hide – why bother anyway? Lay yourself before the world and don’t be afraid to be human.

Recovery isn’t a goal, but a process. You never stop repairing and renewing yourself. You must absorb the light and shadow of each day you live. Don’t keep your spirit stuck in yesterday as a new day begins. Prayer is process.

Live and Let Love in!

Julia Ashton-Sayers

George Harrison – Give me Love

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

OM M M M M M M M M M M M M M
M M M My Lord . . .

PLEASE take hold of my hand, that
I might understand you

Won't you please
Oh won't you

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

OM M M M M M M M M M M M M M
M M M My Lord . . .

Won't you please
Oh won't you

Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul
Give me love
Give me love
Give me peace on earth
Give me light
Give me life
Keep me, Keep me free from birth
Give me hope
Help me cope, with this heavy load
Trying to, touch and reach you with,
heart and soul

OM M M M M M M M M M M M M M
M M M My Lord . . .

The Power of Now

I call on the Law of Forgiveness for all mistakes humanity has made that has had a harmful effect on others and the planet. I now fully forgive all humanity, past and present. All accumulated negativity is now dissolved and consumed.

The weekend has provided the perfect interlude for the healing phase to commence. The harmful barbs and rejection of the previous week has taken its toll. The poisonous darts have been removed and now the healing begins.

During this nurturing phase I’ve got back to reading (and even finished some of my books). One book in particular is, The Power of Now. I’ve read it before of course but recently I felt compelled to pick it up again. Another layer of this healing phase has been to only receive phone calls from people who love me. For example, last night my brother rang and we talked about some of the learning from the previous week. He was fully present and offered lots of sage advice about new strategies for putting situations to rest.

One of my conscious tactics for this week is to stay fully focused in the present – another is to leave things as they are – don’t try to investigate accusations further and don’t try to justify my actions/reactions. Finally, as Yasmin Boland suggests, release the ego – all the astro-alignments – Sun and Chiron link – heal the past and facilitate a harmonious day.

We are on the eve of a New Moon. It is a highly fertile phase and a time to consider what priorities and situations we need to focus on or create. My focus is primarily financial freedom and peace and harmony in my workplace.

The Devil promises the freedom from bondage and oppression. Can we really be free? Is freedom a state of mind or a hiatus in a long and arduous journey?

The Chariot is inviting me to get on board and hang on – change is coming and I am pulled in two directions.

The Hierophant is the healer – the teacher and the inspiration for my day ahead.

It’s a 10/1 day – so the landscape is being cleared for a new pasture. The seeds are chosen carefully and discriminately.

The moment is now and that is all that matters. Living in the present is a gift to us all. God gives you only the present, moment by moment. How much of your precious day do you invest in the past? Everything from your past except wisdom and love has long since served its purpose. Witness what calls to you from yesterday and why.

So Be It!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

The wounded beast walks

I call on the Law of Forgiveness for every mistake I have ever made, knowingly and unknowingly, that has had a harmful affect on others and the planet. I fully and freely forgive myself, as all negativity I have ever released is now dissolved and consumed.

Recently, I’ve experienced a strong Chiron transit. During this time this tiny planetoid has met up with Jupiter – planet of mega buster proportions. While this tiny planetoid would prefer to heal silently in a cave somewhere – Jupiter throws the party of the century and invites all of your mistakes along. Meanwhile, in my first house Saturn is making a list and checking it twice. From what I can see in future transits these alignments are in play for a while – oh goodie!

So, what does that all mean? For me, it is a time to take responsibility for myself – my healing – consolidate my life’s ambitions – make appropriate adjustments in my life and move on. During these transits I am likely to experience some isolation – perhaps feel over burdened and even a little resentful. All good stuff this personal growth, isn’t it?

I guess my baseline stems from an expanding self-awareness and ultimately self-management. How have I handled these past hurts and what do I need to resolve them? I don’t really know the answers as I am still exploring my options. So watch this space!

I finished a book yesterday (see hiding in books is my first strategy). It is called, The White Book by Ken Mansfield. It is a book about the life of Ken Mansfield and his association with the Beatles and other rock/country legends. Toward the end of the book he wrote about John Lennon and how Ken maintains that John laid out his imperfections for the world to see. He was courageous and forthright about his human-ness. Lennon was brutally honest about himself and his life choices (I admire that about him (yes present tense – as he still impacts on the collective consciousness).

I am not sure if I am that brave – by in my wounded healing phase I will do my best.

I believe the wounded beast walks within all of us. Sometimes we layer it with escapism e.g. food, alcohol, shopping – denial in drag, basically. Well, it is a drag if it goes on for too long. Either that or you put on a lot of weight and eventually do don’t know who you are anymore. Soul destroying – isn’t it?

Look, I am not saying I know the answers because I don’t. What I am saying is that I, too am a work in progress.

With Saturn sitting so close to my identity I can’t escape the reality of each situation. It’s like the Emperors new clothes. I’m vulnerable and raw but it doesn’t matter because I must keep up appearances, anyway. Life can be so complex can’t it?

My first and most compelling thought is to run away. Holidays are close – let’s escape to the beach? But then, I think no, let’s get it over with – lets dive into the abscess – drain the poison and begin the healing process. So here I am ready to heal.


It’s a number nice day – conclusion/resolution (would be nice if the healing journey was over – not just beginning – again). Perhaps it is just the end of the spiral of discontent?

Hierophant is the wounded healer the wise counsel. He offers wisdom borne out of pain. His legend is representative of the wounded beast – stoic and resolute – painful and strong.

Apollo offers the healing poultice. It’s time to apply the potion that will heal your pain completely, this time.

Today is an easy day for me. There is not a great deal of obligation and the “to do” list is manageable. It is an appropriate time to time for me to thing about my healing odyssey (perhaps the naughty girls room for a while?).

I have begun my journal today with a healing affirmation. I’ve asked for forgiveness of myself and others. I am also choosing a healing card each day from Carolyn Myss to support this journey. Maybe you will identify with the messages and integrate these thoughts and words into your quest? And in time you may choose to join me in the alchemy back to you!

The Divine dwells within you, and desire that you heal. Are you fully aware of the Presence? Call upon the power of the Divine to awaken its healing force within you. Be grateful for this miracle.

Enjoy the miracle of the day and sprinkle a little joy into your day – smile – it’s the only way!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Kindred Spirit

I may not know the solution to this challenge, but there is apart of me that does. I release all worry, fear and confusion now! I allow my higher self to orchestrate the best possible action, one that will satisfy the needs of everyone concerned.

The Moon in Scorpio is passionate and intense. The desire to create and feel the sensuality of life coursing through my veins is excruciatingly sublime. The week has been challenging, to say the lease, but now this is me time and I am out for fun.

Fortunately, I have a kindred spirit to share my zest for fun and pleasure. He is my husband and quite ironically a Scorpion too. We have already acknowledged some verbal obligations and made priorities to share in a couples date. Our quest is to keep the relationship alive and celebrate the carefree moments of the warm cosy energy of the weekend and begin the process of diminishing the painful memories of the past five days.

The week finished on a high note as I participated in a two day leadership course. This was enlightening and reinvigorating. Talk about the answers coming at the perfect time. Well this was just what I needed at that exact moment. I was massively grateful. I felt honoured and a real buzz electrified my spirit. During the course I realised that I had made some big mistakes in my career. Those mistakes had been layered with my perceptions. Sure, I’d been hurt and my feelings were justified. Sure, I’d been rejected and ostracised – that’s true too – now the question is, how do I get back to me?

I think we live and work in a very reactionary world. I’ve reacted to situations – sometimes badly and sometimes wisely and sometimes in a wounded way. But here’s the thing – I’m human! If it is good enough for Tiger Woods then it is good enough for me, okay?

I remember seeing an interview with John Lennon where the interviewer was giving him heaps about some of the things that he had said or done. He kept replying, “So what, I’m human!” He added, “I may not do it right all of the time but I am doing it my way! I think that there is another song in that but I won’t go there!

I guess that is the key – I’m not certain because I am still learning – I am still growing as a person and boy am I still vulnerable and hurt. If I cut myself I bleed. If I stub my toe gosh it hurts! To be honest, I tried the “superwoman” gig in the 1980’s but I’ve traded in the cape for a reality cap.

I hope you don’t think that this is a cop out. Its not! I still set high expectations for myself and others and when those expectations are not realised then I get disappointed and at times even disillusioned. However, my energy and resilience is enduring and I keep working at getting the colour code matching the mural of my world. I suppose we could join Cilla Black here and sing along to, “You can colour my world with sunshine yellow each day!” But, no, I’m not the eternal optimist but rather the optimist blended with a layer of realist. As Milton the Monster advises, “a tincture of tenderness but not too much.”

It’s a number eight day of balance and harmony’ a good day therefore to debrief the tough alignments of the week. It’s a day to gather your strength and seek some loving solace with your kindred spirit.

With that intention, I plan to touch my spirit. When I touch my spirit, I touch the source of unbounded affluence. I recognise that I am infinitely abundant.

I wish you a pleasant and satisfying excursion into your spirit – do what is right for you and you will find perfection in your heart.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Rainbow Idealism

There is on mind, Divine Mind, in which we all live, move and have our being. I remember there is no them and us. There is only us. I live each day in peace – peace of mind, peace in heart, peace in action.

The High Priestess ushers me from the darkness of my emotional prison. She knows the score – been there before. The Emperor commands – take you power back, child – don’t give them an inch and don’t buy into their wicked ways. Treachery lingers in the hearts of the pettiness – rise above and don’t respond in kind. The Sun is seductive and alluring. Not only does it force its way through the dark clouds of loneliness, scattering them to the four winds, its rays of optimism remind me that a new day is as evocative as a new way of living.

Today is a number seven day. These are the days for inner reflection and question time at the stadium of the soul. It is not necessarily the BIG issues of life but more like a reality check of how am I doing? Am I on track? Do I meet my standards? Am I holding true to the values and beliefs I started out with?

I believe that we start out pure – coated in honest intention and coloured with rainbow idealism. Most of are “good people” then we are flung into the world. You have to make your way through the rocky outcrops of reality – hit a few edifices (sometimes) almost drown in emotional whirlpools, flung on to foreign beaches with strangers, you make friends and then you realise that they are not your friends – instead they are treacherous lying cheating thieves who rob you of your self esteem. What then? What must we do?

For me, on a day with this Sun and Mars alignment – coupled with the Libran moon I start out with good intention to resolve those relationships that taunt at my soul and keep me awake at night. We want to be liked, right? We all want to live and work in peace and harmony? And yet we walk away disappointed and disillusioned by another failed attempt of relationship balance. Our expectations are smashed by the reality hammer.

So, what do we do? My strategy is to pick up the pieces of my self esteem and move into another classroom. In that new environment I offer and express my unique talents. I have unique talents that when expressed, serve my own needs, as well as my family and the society I live in.

See you in the rainbow of idealism.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

And still I rise

We focus our attention on the universal mind, heart and soul of all creation. In this state of oneness, we speak to all beings engaged in war, battle, hostility, aggression, all manner of action that causes harm to another: “In the name, love, wisdom and power of the I THAT IA AM, I say, STOP THIS NOW! Turn to your Higher Self and be guided by right thought and right action.”

The Moon and Saturn are in Libra today. This alignment has the potential to cool our emotions or to offer a balance in our relationships. Fair mindedness – a fair and just heart will win Chronos over every time.

It’s a number six day and this energy is perfect for commitment and responsibility. Yesterday was a rough and tumble day of changes and I felt them to the core of my being.

Death is the changer – one painful door slams shut and the Fool opens another. The Emperor counsels the wounded ones; there; there the torment has now passed.

I’ve written pages of “private” notes this morning as the sun kisses my window pane. I cannot publish them to the world instead I’ll offer them to my sacred truth.

This journal is a testament of my life in this earth school. All I can say, is the poem below offers solace to a tormented soul during a sleepless night.

In closing, I confess that I protect my inner life from the opinions of others. I know that in order to create good luck in my life; its often best to keep silent about my innermost dreams and intentions. I simply let my vision unfold naturally.

So Be It.

Peace and Love,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

Still I Rise – Maya Angelou http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/still-i-rise/

Still I Rise



You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops.
Weakened by my soulful cries.

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own back yard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

Conscious creations

The collection consciousness of Earth is now raised to higher levels of awareness. The collective mind now deepens its understanding of universal law, and lives accordingly.

If we all lived “mindfully” then what would happen? I mean, if we were conscious of every thought, word, action, intention reaction and every step we take then what would we create?

Yesterday I was mindful of every thought word and especially every mouthful I ate. I was living consciously as I was feeling ill. I wanted to be well, I didn’t want to create more illness in my body so, and I lived consciously.

Toward the end of the day I felt calm and grounded. I was aware of every thought; I was pure (and focused) in my intent. It was a moment of enlightenment.

Buddha maintains that “enlightenment” is the end of suffering”. And that was my intention – to end my suffering. Not only to end my sickness or suffering but to create wellness and a state of being in the now. Mission accomplished.

So, what do I do with that now? I’ve honoured myself with the moment of enlightenment. How do I build on that or even sustain it? It’s a nice feeling; a feeling of enjoying each tiny morsel of food or even tiny speck of thought. I was calm, rested and in the moment.

This “moment” made me think about how the rhythm and pulse of our lives distracts us or keeps us in a state of perpetual chaos. Boy Dylan once remarked that chaos lived right next to him. Is that why people anaesthetise themselves with drugs, alcohol, food and many other addictions/diversions?

The storm of my repulsion has passed. A fresh landscape is cleansed of toxic thoughts and impurities. I conjure the perfect outcome with the assistance of the Magician. The Fool is begging for a new phase of fresh perspectives and experiences. Gaia groans with the labour that will deliver a new era. It’s time to elevate ourselves above the chaos of our lives.

It’s a number five day and a lover appears to grasp and give a good yank – turn the corner and don’t look back. I consciously create my reality with my desires. It is through desire that the unmanifest can manifest. So Be It!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

The transition lounge

Infinite wisdom now governs every thought, word and action of the world’s leaders. They open their minds and hearts to greater understanding, harmony and resolution.

The Moon moves into detailed oriented Virgo today. The Jupiter-Chiron healing alignment encourages an overview of our health and wellbeing. Both cosmic influences are supportive of a little healthy and daily activities review; thus, giving you the opportunity to ask the question, “so how is your health and wellbeing?”

It’s a number four day – a good day for laying the foundations for the future. The structure and building blocks are essential to the solid path that we treat during our daily rituals. The Moon in Virgo supports that theme – it’s time to get organised and clear about the fundamentals of your life.

The World is my oyster. Love, peace and happiness hang low on the vine – ripe for the picking and deliciously savouring our souls. The Wheel of Fortune is a magnificent attraction with the Jupiterian influence and the trusty spin from the great benefactor. It seems the harder I work; the luckier I become. Effort = rewards – that’s for sure.

The Fool ushers a phase of new beginnings - time to start afresh and in a new direction. Clear out the dust that lingers to the old dreams and visions and start the day with a new philosophy – a new way of living in the world.

Yesterday I got really sick. It started with a headache, raw and raging. As the pain reached an intolerable intensity I was physically ill. The purge was uncomfortable and in some ways distressing. Going through that phase was awful – each painful second dragged out for hours. This morning the headache lingers but the toxic swirling in my gut has passed. I feel week but optimistic that the worst is behind me now.

Life is a lot like that illness – the involuntary spasms of toxic overload leave us in a new frontier. Where to from here, Girlie? We must ask the question – we know we can’t go back to the devils playground again.

The Fool encourages me to start again – an optimistic attitude and a new perspective layered with a focused intent.

Right now I feel as if I am sitting in the transit lounge. I surrender to the Divine with one thought pulsating through my mind; I intend to create good luck in my life. When I recognise the power of intent, I can focus it to create the life I want.

So Be It!

Peace and Love,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

Green Back Pack – Nelson Bay

I’m all flushed in a green glow. There’s a stirring in my cavity I just can’t explain. With a rustling of belongings and packing of familiar travel items I know we’re off again.

Damn, bugger, poo – I’m lumped in the back with you know who? She is such a Princess it infuriates me to my zippers. Don’t they get it? I’m such an important part of their lives it is beneath me to travel with a flea bag. I think I will just sit here and pout.

Oh lookie there we are crossing the border heading north. Gosh, I wonder where we are headed. It must be a long trip as the boot is filled with a lot less important cargo – you know cosmetic bag, cosy bags and assorted totes. I’m so glad that I wasn’t created like them – how boring – no personality and certainly no mind of their own. Anyhow, we’re off on another adventure.

Grunt, snorkel – what – where are we? And what time is it? Crikey it must be nearly midnight – where did those hours go?

The early morning bird calls jolt me out of a peace sleep. Why is the world so bombarded with creatures flying between trees? Mistress is up for her early morning ritual – coffee and journal writing. I’m sure she is writing about me – my flaps burst with pride as she looks over – yes, it’s definitely true it is about me – I just knew it!

Here we are in Nelson Bay. Where the bloody hell is Nelson Bay? Oh, a holiday – well, why didn’t you say before? You know how much I like holidays? It’s my favourite time and even more importantly, it brings me closer to the Goddess .

The days filled with special interludes blend into one happy week of memories. The walks on the beach and around the coastline are my favourite time, of course. We put on the walking shoes and flip flops and hats a little sunscreen of course. This coastal town has a lot to offer, by golly and the Mistress and her family are indulging the sites like a starving man at a banquet.

Sunday 25 April 2009 and there is a sombre feeling in the town. Family speaks in hushed and respectful tones and move quietly throughout the morning preparation. It is Anzac Day and you can feel the honour and pride floating throughout the air – consideration is given to those who gave their lives so we might live in freedom and peace – what a price? “We shall remember them!”

The week unfolds with lots of chatter and loving familial conversation. This family is so loving and warm – no wonder I chose them to be my adoptive family.

The Mistress is my favourite, of course, she is the one person in the world who can see inside the “real me”. She gives me a voice – and brings my intellectual observations to the world. Where would I be without her – I perish the thought. Now, I’m not the one for being soppy but she is my source of inspiration and the meaning to my existence. Anyhow, that’s enough of the mushy stuff.

Friday is by far the best day of the holiday jaunt. We took off early and packed for a mini adventure. Water bottles, sun screens and cameras – oh nooo – it can’t be happening you guessed it – the rabid flea bag – gruff, grunt, pout!

We took a ferry ride across the bay to Tea Gardens. The pathetic flea bag quivered on top of Mistress’s lap (normally my sacred spot). She’s a right manipulator; you know getting far too much attention for my liking.

I got lumped up into an overhead wire basket and was left there all forgotten and lonely. Hullo, look at this I can see way off into the distance from up here – not so bad after all.

Dolphins swam close to our boat as we rolled and rocked gently across the watery highway. Fishermen lined the shore hopeful that some suicidal creature would latch on. Two majestic sea eagles were the centurions of the bay – perched high above the everglades – offering a regal sign post.

The day was filled with great food, lots of laughter and documented with happy snaps. After we docked back at Nelson Bay it was a quick packing of the car and we were headed back home gain. Exhausted and too tormented from the trip back home I am too tired to recall the trip but you can guarantee I’ll see you again soon for another Green Back Pack adventure.

Your mate,

Greenie

Heal those wounds

I now see/visualise/feel this planet as a slowly rotating blue, green orb surrounded by glowing sunlight. I watch as the golden rays’ blaze into every nation of the world. I see the whole planet wrapped in this pulsating golden light.

Jupiter-Neptune-Chiron offers the cosmic elixir to heal our wounds this week. Not before an obsessive to do between Mercury and Pluto. Astrologically it should be a rather “interesting” week – so watch this space.

Even if we have been hurt on a physical, emotional or spiritual plane, healing has the potential to take place.

Yasmin Boland suggests that we can begin to heal by having a focused conversation. Whispers of insight though, make sure it is with someone you trust/respect.

Trust and respect are very important credentials for Scorpions. And if you abuse the trust of a Scorpion they’ll take a long time to forgive and or forget – perhaps even a lifetime. So, sure sit down and have that conversation but make sure the person you share your heart/emotions with is someone who is deemed as worthy.

I adore days like this in the Earth School. There is potential for healing is phenomenal and there is a little obsession swirling around in the mix – perfect! I feel blessed on days like these and love to soak up the cosmic flow.

The Star is the luminous icon in my spread. The Magician creates magic in a blink of an eye. The Emperor is resolute on his search for the truth. Everything is perfect in my life right now.

It’s a number three day – communication, intellectual pursuits, short journeys and siblings are the focus. It’s a time to draw a line in the sand and demand that we’ll not take the carving of our self-esteem – it belongs to us and they can’t have it – no matter how they try.

Bask in the healing power of the Jupiter-Neptune-Chiron coupling and heal those wounds forever. It’s not too late to be liberated from the fiery dungeons of regret and fear. Stand strong in your personal power. With true power from within nothing is beyond your reach.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Living is easy with eyes closed!

As we relax and let go, we feel a great outpouring of peace flooding our minds, and hearts. This great wave of calming peace saturates every fibre of our being and world.

Have you ever woken up and wandered around your home and thought, this day feels especially wonderful? Well, this morning I did.

As I opened up the blinds and walked through the rooms and hallways there was a sense of peace, love and harmony filling every crevice of my home – it felt, wholesome and fresh, loving and brilliant? I was grounded in the knowledge that life is good and I am truly blessed. I am grateful for my life.

Yesterday I was preparing to leave for my morning of pampering and maintenance (aka facial and hairdresser) I stopped and listened to the words of a familiar son on the radio. The words were, “living is easy with eyes closed”. And yes, the song is Strawberry Fields Forever (rest of the lyrics below).

I’ve read that Lennon and McCartney wrote words/lyrics were nonsensical creations and there was in some cases not a lot of meaning behind them. In fact it was the media or public that sought and conveyed their own interpretations from the messages. Apparently, the legendary duo has suggested that if it sounded good then hey you have a song.

I digress, even though the words may not have had intent in the beginning, I thought about the relevance of those words in my life.

Do I live with my eyes closed? I know that I am a curious person. I also am a self confessed inquisitor and a searcher. In that view, do I need to take off the lenses of denial and look at life with eyes wide open? What about you? Are your eyes open? Maybe we can meet in strawberry fields?

It’s an 11/2 day so the day promises to be a public/private affair. I have some journals/columns to publish so that is my priority.

Then, I have my Circle of Manifestation to attend. This Circle is a group of like-minded people who share the belief that we can create our dream life with focused intent. It’s a positive and motivated group of people who are living with eyes wide opened and hears on fire – intent to burn.

Speaking of fore – the Moon is Leo and the Sun in Sagittarius is a potent mix of fire. The creative Leo Moon invests the fifth house intensity into our day. The Moon is not all that comfortable in this sign but at least she is off the coach and the box of chocolates is history.

Chocolate – did someone say chocolate? Last night we went to our friends 49’er birthday party and his wife had made a white chocolate cheesecake. Oh! My Goodness! It was heavenly. Unfortunately, her cheesecake has now officially met legendary status as the word has got around. I don’t mind one slice as it is enough to catapult you into a state of bliss. I’d arrive at the first taste.

It’s a magical Sunday and my three Major Arcana cards support that theme. Judgement – releasing and support from the Angelic realm. Magician – need I say more? And the World is the cherry on top – Venus stands boldly in the garland of plenty – although after the cheesecake from last night it had better be salad and fruit – don’t you think?

I am off to create in my life- it’s my choice. To be free is to know that I can direct my awareness where I want to, when I want to and how I want to!


Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Lyrics: Strawberry Fields Forever! (http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Strawberry-Fields-Forever-lyrics-The-Beatles/D9A941B443BA338B48256BC200142A40 )

No one I think is in my tree, I mean it must be high or low.
That is you can't you know tune in but it's all right.
That is I think it's not too bad.

Let me take you down, 'cause I'm going to Strawberry Fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about.
Strawberry Fields forever.

Living is easy with eyes closed, misunderstanding all you see.
It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out.
It doesn't matter much to me.

Let me take you down, 'cause I'm going to Strawberry Fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about.
Strawberry Fields forever.

Always know sometimes think it's me, but you know I know and it's a dream.
I think I know of thee, ah yes, but it's all wrong.
That is I think I disagree.

Let me take you down, 'cause I'm going to Strawberry Fields.
Nothing is real and nothing to get hung about.
Strawberry Fields forever.
Strawberry Fields forever.
Strawberry Fields forever.

The Warrior Goddess - livng with the Black Dog

Depression is an unwelcome intruder in our lives. It creeps in and settles upon us without invitation or respite. As the fog encroaches on our spirit the arduous days of suppression and pain fill us with despair. Fading into obscurity and abandoning any hope for being “normal” is the only option.

On days like these it is difficult to leave the comfort and safety of my bed. My bed becomes the island of retreat, a place where I can escape. I don’t have to put on an appropriate mask to hide the blackness within. I can be sullen and self effacing and bask in my sea of anonymity. However, the masks are effective as they keep the inquirers from peaking into my deception and prevent me from crumbling into annihilation. But what happens when the masks fall off or don’t fit anymore? Then I must face the world naked and my true self is exposed.

Carl Jung, the famous psychoanalyst, invites us to consider the concept of the collective unconscious where he suggests that our unconscious mirrors significant behavioural patterns. But what if these “behavioural patterns” are destructive or treacherous? What then? How can we defend ourselves against the battle for our sanity?

I am but an unfortunate wench with scars upon my soul too deep and perverse to heal in this millennium. Sadness prevails as I embrace my gloom, wandering aimlessly throughout the caverns of my mind, each one darker and gloomier than the previous. How did I get here? Did I free-fall, or was I pushed? No, I landed here alone one dark and stormy night!

Each morning I struggle to get out of bed and lament my destiny. It is too difficult to rise another day and stretch a fake smile across my mask of broken dreams. I am alone; I am a wretched soul of circumstance. Don’t rescue me for I am not worth your effort. Leave me to lie beside the road; do not lean over to offer a helping hand for I would bite it off in a second.

When the shadow reigns I am vindictive and will taunt you with my blackness. If you take me into your heart I will poison it forever. Take me into your mind and I will infect your thoughts each and every breathless moment. In a heartbeat I will destroy you and every infinitesimal opportunity for happiness. I am you. I am your dark reflection. Look deeper into my pools of lies and I will entice you to the edge of your sanity.

Today we placate these demons with drugs or alcohol. But what if we’re meant to embrace them, to acknowledge them for their existence in our world? How can we defend ourselves when we are lost in victimology? To “feel” would be disastrous and to shield my pain another moment would epitomise the nothingness of my life.

Jung refers to these darker aspects of our personality as the shadow or undeveloped parts which are not meant to have a voice. Conversely, I have chosen to refer to my “shadow” as Athene, Goddess of Justice. Not only does she have a voice but a commanding demeanour delivering an unbeatable doctrine.

Athene is the Warrior Goddess. She stands for Justice. She possesses a brilliant mind and her decisions are based purely on intellectual deliberation. Her empowering energy in my life encourages me to live from the power of my mind rather than the stagnant pool of emotions. On the darkest days she motivates me to get out of bed and walk the beach, stamping away the darkness with each deliberate step. She encourages me to write about my shadow and relish the power of honesty through creativity, to feel comfortable with the words and to embrace the delicate balance of emotional and intellectual well being. She is a stern Goddess, that is true, but the reward is a lantern flickering in the dank fog. Her bounty is the excitement for life and the possibilities therein.

The Warrior Goddess motivates me to dress in the brightest colours and adorn myself with jewels, crystals and fragrances. These secret formulas shield the misery of tortured dreams that haunt me and plague my waking hours. With this archetype I perceive myself as a worthy opponent and am inspired to take up the pen and craft a deft and powerful adversary for my evil reflection. Yes, after the battle I am exhausted but able to reflect upon the experience of the alchemy a time when I must accept my fragility. Other times I celebrate the glory of triumphant battle.

The battle with depression is a precarious and challenging journey. Awareness of our emotionality is an opportunity to make a choice and embrace a holistic life of balance, joy and creativity. When the black dog threatens our contentment we must pick up the sword and defend our right for sobriety and normalness.


BLACK DOG

I sit here all alone and I stroke his shiny coat
He pains me so much more than any words that I have wrote
I take another swig and allow myself some glee
And each horrid disastrous day I lament my destiny

I’ve been lost and yet relished the victimology of my world
Don’t rescue me, I’m not worth the effort, let me grow old
I am an unfortunate wench, my soul too scarred to heal
It’s just another arduous day of suffering I must feel

You know me and you despise me yet you love me all the same
Am I your sister or your brother, or have I your mother’s name
The misery, it haunts your dreams, plagues you’re waking hours
I fade into obscurity; it’s the only option now

Take me into your heart and I will poison it for all time
I’ll infect your breathless thoughts if you let me in your mind
I’ll destroy you in a heartbeat and all chance of happiness
Look deep into my pool of lies, to you I shall confess.


By Julia Ashton-Sayers and T.B Jackson (2006)