An introduction to Julia's E-Journal June 2009

Hello and welcome,


HAD I the heavens’ embroidered cloths,Enwrought with golden and silver light,The blue and the dim and the dark clothsOf night and light and the half light,I would spread the cloths under your feet:But I, being poor, have only my dreams;I have spread my dreams under your feet;Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
W.B. Yeats (1865–1939)"He Wishes For the Cloths of Heaven"from the Collected Works of W.B. Yeats

The published content of my journals is a desire to share a part of my story with the world. It is not an egotistic foray of one woman’s perspective rather an insight into the dialogue with my soul evolution.

Throughout history we have been fascinated with other’s people’s perceptions drinking in their view of the world. Anne Frank comes to mind immediately. Her imagination and recall of the one of the most horrific phases in humanity is legendary. In recent times we’ve been invited into the personal documentaries of modern day poets, singers and artistic performers. I’m not saying that my journals are as riveting or important in historical recording instead I suggest that perhaps one day one person will read these books and the chapters within will resonate with their journey.

I’ve written in a diary or journal as a young girl. I can recall that at 7 years of age I began to scribble down thoughts, words, observations and sometimes childish attempts at poetry. The diary was white and locked with a key. As I’ve grown the lock has been broken and now the entries are available for the entire world to read.

Since I’ve landed in this classroom of life I’ve had a sense that I am here in some capacity as an agent for change. Born under the sign of Scorpio supports the philosophy of transformation and with a strong Gemini Moon/Jupiter (ninth house of publishing) alignment recording these inner revelations has been an integral part of my journey.

I’ve been labeled a trail blazer, spiritual counselor, teacher and healer. While all these titles have brought a certain amount of satisfaction they don’t encompass all that I am – or want to be for that matter.

I am an emotional creator with a lofty adoration for visionary splendor. While writing I can leave my body to take in the view, transcending normality and the restrictions of fear. After the euphoric escapism I (sometimes) enter the darkness of an emotional cauldron battling my demons. It sort of sets up a love/hate relationship with my muse however, out of the darkness brings in the epiphany of my muse. She is fragile, bold, courageous and sometimes sad. She is my trusted confidante and my greatest teacher. These e-journals are some of the dialogues we’ve shared.

These words spoken to my soul spark the passion, sensuality, sensitivity, conflict and express the need for the ongoing desire for love, commitment to my muse. Through metaphor I am consistently inventing a new language of thought. These thoughts support the unraveling of multi-colored yarn preparing for the weaving of a new tapestry.

At times in my life I’ve felt as if I didn’t fit it – like I had landed on another planet without a guide book or interpretative code. Perhaps this feeling comes from the awareness that I have not found my niche – maybe that niche hasn’t been created.

What I do know is that I must nurture my heart and soul as this keeps my creativity alive. I must love what I do and feel what I do with all of my heart. This commitment is inherent in my daily ritual of conversing with my soul.

I need to explore the heights and depths of human evolution. My goal is to get through this life with a good heart and soul. I must ingest the data (experience and emotions) that surrounds me and imbue it into my personal alchemy. The pain and hurt of the injustices are revealed in my journals. This cathartic process reveals the rebounding from the tortured states of awareness, integrating these observations and a human attempt of rationalization.

My journals describe my own changes. I assume that you will be going through similar transformations. As I peel the layers of my soul experience and offer them to you to share I do so with love, respect and humanity. Enter into my internal dialogue if you choose.

Love, Peace, Harmony and Happiness,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

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Excuse me; your life is waiting- playtime…

The morning spread reveals creativity, inspiration and empowerment. It is a number five day – a day of changes. It’s Saturn-day – domestic duties and organising the home and projects therein. There have been some rumblings that a clearing out is high on the agenda – I’ve been deleting files/folders and removing duplicating from my hard drive – ridding my life of the unnecessary and clutter. I wonder – why is that we collect so much stuff and store it in on our hard drives – or even hold on to it in her hearts and souls – for that matter?

Over the past couple of days I’ve been undertaking a little study program. It is a workbook written by Lynn Grabhorn. The program is in, The Excuse me, your life is waiting playbook. The book suggests that there are 12 Tenets of Awakening. And I’ve decided to wake up! Currently I am up to Tenet Four: We giggle why we are here – basically Grabhorn believes that we have incarnated into, “the playground of the gods!” She goes on to suggest that we are here to further, “the soul’s growth.” This “playground” is a place to fulfil the diver programming requirements of multitudinous diverse souls. Actually, she suggests that our soul is like a, “computer chip, designed exclusively to bold data in the form of emotions and feelings. One aspect of this chapter I find interesting is that Grabhorn maintains that that we have this “gigantic memory bank of our being which retains all the happiness and paid that has been dealt with, and all that has not.” Hence, we set off on our life path with a vision to complete an, “almighty emotional treasure hunt”. I like that – don’t you – I am not having a bad day or year I’ve just pricked my emotional baggage with the pin from the ruby brooch. Sort of sheds a new light on things doesn’t it?

One of the key messages from yesterday was that Grabhorn states, “a small group of us, including you (that is me by the way), volunteered to be part of the ’somebody’s gotta-do-it’ group who are here to pave the way for all humankind to eventually become an individuated Self that shall be more – that’s right, more – than the Source from which it came. The human shall be a Self, a Creator, and a Source, all in one. It has never happened before. And, by the simple virtue of your involvement with this guidebook, you can be assured that you are one who volunteered to come and trail blaze a path for others to follow.

Wow! Can you imagine how exciting that feels? It is like I’ve always known this somewhere deep in my unconscious mind – why do I attract these lessons – why am I so curious – why do I constantly walk into walls and go – this is a lessons I’ve done before – what do I need to learn about this? So, here you are – reading the journal of a trail blazer! My lessons are your lessons – there are some big wallops coming your way – and the lessons are coming fast and furious – are you able to keep up?

At the moment I am facing, “issues”. “Issues” are negative energy. I’m on the owning and dumping run – getting rid of the low frequency energy. My goal (and yours too if you choose to accept it) is to arrive at a joyful state of being. I know I’m up for it – what about you?

I will keep you posted with my progress. I am sure that you will read about it my journal over the next few years. I will not reveal too much about the book as I suggest, if you are a trail blazer you will end up with a copy yourself. For now, I am reading, digesting, releasing and integrating the awareness created from studying these 12 Tenets. I have to admit though, that a lot of what Grabhorn has to say makes sense. And on that note, if you knew that an underlying strand of why you constantly struggle with regret or continually go around in momentous cycles would you want to unravel it and learn from it – weave it into a new pattern – I know I do!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Respect yourself…

The Fool bursts from the cave – enough reflection and hanging about – let’s move on! I’ve been through all of the challenges life has to offer and now my aim is to start afresh – integrate the lessons into my backpack of experience and toddle down the road of dreams. It is time to move on rather than contemplate your navel at the rock of indecision and regret.

The Emperor demands respect. His rule is ruthless, unyielding and unrelenting. He is a formidable part of my psyche but a part that enforces a self respect and sold protective boundaries.

The Lovers – a balanced perspective – communication flows and the gentleness grows. Within the hearts of the broken ones we find the saddest tales of love and loss. Don’t fret beautiful one – well’ supply the healing elixir – remain calm and be gentle with yourself. Take care of you and see the time out you deserve.

Light showers have brought a mist of hope to the Capital. The dry scorched earth is gulping at the tiny droplets of hope. The green shoots of future crops peak through the earth and stretch toward the spring. These tiny tips represent the new crop or phase burgeoning with hope and optimism – hope supplies the impetus to burst through the oppressive clay and push us into a new day.

The sage words of Eleanor Roosevelt echo in my mind, “No one can make you feel inferior without your permission.” So why do we allow ourselves to be trampled by the disrespect of others? How can we enforce a self imprisonment on our souls we all we strive toward are to be free and create Nirvana?

The disillusionment of another week of discontent infects my soul. My body is wracked with regret and yet I know the lessons are not new or the venom has not been dripped down my gullet of self before today. Why do we crave the approval of others if we have learned time after time that we will never achieve this ticket to ride? Why is it that the sensitive ones must be cut the deepest? Isn’t there any justice in the world? I don’t know why and I am too exhausted to care!

Caring equals engagement – so I must disengage and not care – is that the answer? Step the betrayal of a tormented heart and care for myself – or just move on – disappointed and bruised. The lessons learned the light bulb is switched on – not only intellectually but physically too! The encouraging whisper of Eleanor once again reminds me that, “change means the unknown”. The dulcet tone of her spiritual voice calling me takes me from the sadness of the moment and my eyes lift toward a new horizon. I’m travelling light and the only baggage is the weight of my experiences – the layering of respect is my fashionistic collectables – like the Fool I look forward to a new time and place – see you there in the land of my dreams.

Love and Peace,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Go for Gold, Julia

Mars, Pluto and the Moon are making this a day to go for gold. There are a lot of assertive energies about today especially for Arians or Scorpions – like me! The energy of the 11/2 day affirms a public/private atmosphere – a time to make your mark on the world – go for gold and don’t hold back. The only regret in life is the things we didn’t do!

The subconscious driers respond in kind- Empress – marks the freshness of a new phase – Strength supports the suggestion to soothe the savage beast (aka: fear). The courage of my conviction is declared by The Emperor himself – Zeus insists that I take the assertive stance and make it to the summit before nightfall.

The skies have been buzzing with alignments this week and today the Bermuda triangle opens up – to boldly go where you’ve never been before – sounds exciting – well let’s talk about it tomorrow morning. It is time to go for gold – stretch out and move fearlessly out of my comfort zone – watch this space as this phase unfolds and reveals a new frontier.

Peace, Love and Courage,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

All you need is love…

The interplay between Venus, Neptune, Jupiter and Chiron today is nothing short of a “love fest”. These key planets of the day combine nicely with the Moon in Libra! The potential for healing is phenomenal and it is our mission to lap it up! The Sun in Gemini offers the avenue for communication and intellectual dedication to love. These expressions can come in the form of written, verbal and even non-verbal. The actual demonstration of love personified (doing unto others as you would like it) is the planetary possibility – noice!

This love fest and retro-hippie phase is a wonderful interlude for own own healing. If we’ve suffered through the last few weeks and feel a little “precious”, today is the perfect celestial remedy to soothe the bruises of contempt. Slather it on and heal your wounds – I’m feeling better already – aren’t you?

Strength appears in the morning spread to remind me to dig deep and find the inner guile to keep focused on my mission. The Fool is boisterous and ready to launch into a new chapter while the wise Hermit cautious – watch your bloody step for crikey sake. The Chariot offers two roads to Nirvana – which one will give you the ride of your life? The path of self love is the safest route – don’t you think? Heal yourself and all will be wonderful in your world – love is all you need!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Revolution – now!

“Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.” Albert Einstein

You say you want a revolution – I’ll have you know that today is a great day to plan a revolt, refrain and rejuvenate. The Moon is in “attention to detail” Virgo and all of her loveliness. This fine checking of habits and behaviours is perfect to do a revise and review of your life. Health and wellbeing feature high on this list along with the daily rituals of routines and conduct especially in your workplace. Are you being the best person you can be? Or are you slouching off and shrugging at the too hard basket? Now is a good opportunity to get back on track or get back to where you once belong!

Resolutions to oneself are the first step toward credibility. How can we make commitments to others if we continually break promises to ourselves? Of course we are all human and this promise breaking routine happens all the time but we can also re-evaluate and get back to our personal goals.

Today is the first day of winter here in Oz. The northern hemisphere is defrosting while Down Under we are scanning the mountain tops for a hint of snow. Rugging up against the winter chills with scarves and hats is the priority.

The agenda reads that it is full tilt back into the workplace; a new week to discover new facets of my being with new lessons to learn no doubt – all in the name of spiritual growth.

This week Venus and Jupiter snuggle in a warm embrace – this aspect has profound healing potential. The chaos of the past few weeks has subsided now that Mars has moved from Aries into Taurus – “sigh”. Mercury is direct and a new month begins. Life is good in Australia right now – we are even keeping a low profile on the, shall we say it – recession. People have been stimulated and so has the economy – great!

The competition for the best new talent in Britain is over. The inspirational Goddess Susan Boyle has come in second to a group of young dancers. While this may have been the fate of the competition I think that in a lot of people’s minds she is a winner many times over. My question is, why do the media always paint such inspirational people in a negative colour? What are they (journalists) afraid of? Is it written somewhere that we must run someone down every time we tap a key on a computer – why can’t we say something positive? I don’t get it! Maybe that is why Einstein was regarded as a genius – he got it in spades!

Enjoy your revolution! Or should I say let’s revolt against the negative media messages and send the positive words of love and inspiration! I wonder what will happen then. Let’s try! So Be It!

Peace and Love and Loads of Inspiration!
Julia Ashton-Sayers

Warm winter chills and spills

It’s June 2009 and winter has arrived. Roger and I planted a load of bulbs before we headed on holidays in April. We went to my brother’s place in Nelson Bay and had a blast. Now we can sit at the window with our faces pressed against the glass and watch the little green shoots struggle toward the winter sun - brave little critters!

I know I've mentioned before that Roger and I have joined a Circle of Manifestation – making friends with like-minded people in Canberra. We are currently manifesting the life we’ve always dreamed.

Moonhawk's column highlights the importance of wellbeing. It gives you a step by step approach to caring for yourself without going over the top. Take a peak and look at some of the nurturing and positive ways you can bring about good health. It is winter here in OZ so we need to prevent cabin fever. Let me know what you think J

Jar of Jems is up there for you to read – keeping up with the ongoing cyber friendship of two women thousands of miles apart. Jems is a trusted confidante and I invite you to share in our journey through this medium.

Harlequin's Haven is revealing with the investigating into the Full Moon and New Moon cycles for mid-year.

The Green Back will take you on another adventure. This chapter covers the research trip out to Burrendong – uniquely express from the warped zippers of this outspoken companion. Enjoy!

A new addition to the Ezine is, Julia’s Journal. This is a page that is updated each week (or when I feel like it). Julia’s Journal is the result of my early morning musings. I’ve also archived previous Journal entries for you to catch up on. This month I will publish them in an Ebook format for you to download when you feel the need to read. While you may not be that interested in my daily thoughts the ritual of journal writing is a great foundation to your own writing life. My motivation is to inspire you to become all that you dream to be!

Dream the dream and don’t give up!

Warm winter thoughts,

Peace and Love,

Julia
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