Riders on the storm

“I am not afraid to let go of what no longer works for me, I release old fears, doubts and confusions. I welcome new beginnings knowing they bring increasing happiness. I am ready!”

Last night I dreamt of three dark horsemen. They were outside in the rain circling a small round silver caravan. Inside I was giving birth to a little girl. When she was born she looked exactly like me (as a baby). I wrapped her in a white sheet and opened the door. As I stepped on to the first silvery step the sun appeared. The three horsemen gathered. They stood side by side and one of them said, “so, she is here, it is a new way of life.”

Slowly and carefully I walk down toward the ocean. I sit on the sand and allow the cool cleansing waters float across my body. I feel reborn.

This dream felt very short. Although I feel that I have been through a long and painful labour. I feel exhausted and as I write in my journal this morning the dark clouds are being forced apart by the power of the golden sun.

I don’t know who the three horsemen are however, I’ve dreamt of them before. They have visited me in a similar setting (or it may have been the same old caravan). My interpretation is that a new phase surrounds me. I have been the through the labour and now the freshness of a new life is here.

Judgement is the choice to relinquish the old, outworn layers of the past. The Lovers seek the primal desires of love. The magician inspires with his ability to create anew; the pains of the past are replaced by a fresh new bairn.

The riders don’t scare me – they never do. I am ready to face them. Their dark austere presence is calm and almost comforting. I do not fear the labour or the intense-ness of the moment. The rain washes away my fears and as I step into the world I feel confident and yet vulnerable. It’s okay for I know that this is my destiny – I am ready.

The day beckons with a distinct feel that destiny is the vibe. The Sun clashes with the North Node but I am feeling supremely confident that there will be quietness before the storm which will deliver a new way of life. All is well.

Yasmin Boland wrote in her Sunday column that “wishes do come true.” I second that statement. I have proof – documented proof. Yesterday afternoon after writing my wish list in my Book of Shadows I decided to flick back over previous New Moon wish lists and realised that most everything I had wished for had come to fruition. This gave me a sense of satisfaction that all that we ask for comes to us under grace in perfect ways through endless opportunities from today.

I can transform my entire life. The Universe is an unbroken continuous fabric with which I can create and intend my destiny. So Be It. And harm to none.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

18 Days to go – Day XXIV – And the word is love!

“One word frees us all of the weight and pain of life: that word is love.” Sophocles

This morning I woke up to the song, “All you need is love” playing in my head. Love has been revered by many artists over time – even as far back as the early Greek philosophers.

Last night I dreamt of Patrick Swayze. Actually, I felt his presence just before I feel asleep. He appeared like a bright golden shinning aura right next to my bed. He said, “It’s beautiful here, Jewells, just like the move – Ghost”. I smiled and replied, “Be a light shinning bright and find love.”

I drifted off to sleep and entered dream land. During my dream I ran across lush meadows filled with flowers. Patrick was playing hide and seek. He balanced himself perfectly on a log that bridged a small brook and did perfect Russian leaps across fields of sunflowers. I sat watching him on a chequered rug and laughing raucously soaking up his youthful and playful spirit.

As I watched I thought, “he is creating his own heaven – I am an observer. Birds sang, butterflies fluttered by and then Patrick approached me on a white stallion – a beast who was proud and perfect in every way. I’ve come to say goodbye for now – I’ll be back when you think of me.” And he galloped away in a cloud of golden dust.

Patrick’s visit is strange because I’ve not really been devoted to Swayze throughout his career. Sure, I’ve enjoyed his characters in Dirty Dancing and Ghost. I’ve loves his spirit and his positive outlook on life and more importantly adored his commitment to his wife. I feel honoured that that he has taken a moment to drop in and remind me that we are all capable of creating our own heaven on earth. Our thoughts and imagination are such potent tools of creation. So today I choose to create a world of love – everybody sing now.

The next phase of my dream evolved and I am in a crowded room with the Beatles singing, “All you need is love!” I step out of the large room and began to walk the streets. I was in New York City and I felt lost but comfortable being lost. I pulled out my cell phone to ring Yoko Lennon but then cursed as I had forgotten her number. I was going to drop by for a cuppa and a chat about astrology. I needed to tell her something important. I looked around the buildings that surrounded me and thought, “Now where am I?” Why can’t I find the right place? I took the elevator to the top of the Empire State building and went to the edge of the observation deck to find where I needed to go. I was getting frustrated but still felt quite jovial. I decided to climb on to the top of the building and then spring from building to building in search of where I needed to be (a bit like spider woman). Eventually, I ended up on the top of the Statue of Liberty. I was sitting on her crown with one of the spikes between my legs. I sat comfortably for quite some time and was happy to dangle my legs over the side and wait for the right moment – to? I don’t know. And I am uncertain what that dream means – I will get back to you when it reveals itself!

My morning spread offers the Sun, Justice, The Emperor and The Star. What a line up? Especially after a wonderful magical dreamy extravaganza! An overall analysis of these cards is: a positive flow of energy in my career – a green light, possibly a contract to move forward – perhaps even a promotion or change of status. Whatever the outcome I see it as a positive move with some authority and confidence building.

It’s a number nine day of resolution, conclusion and empowerment. It is day twenty four of the program. I am feeling very positive – possibly a touch pious. I’ve come this far, stuck to the regime and I can see the finish line.

Keep the dream alive!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

My intent is clear

“If you do not change direction you’ll end up wherever you’re heading.” Lao Tzu

The Sun shines brightly through my window on this cold and frosty morning. It is a day of reflection and I have the opportunity to do just that. The Moon is in practical Taurus and she is heading toward another eclipse. The Sun is in Cancer and we are making home the perfect retreat.

This may be my final entry in this journal book. That doesn’t mean of course, that the words won’t come and the pen refuse to follow. It just means another book is waiting to fill with thoughts, words, ideas, goals, wishes and dreams and yes of course those naughty tantrums too.

My faithful companion, Jazz lies near my bed. She is devoted to me and doesn’t waiver on her commitment. Perhaps I place her devotion as a benchmark for friends and family to aspire. Maybe this standard of loyalty is too high and that is why I become disappointed when close relations don’t measure up.

I’m not saying that I expect my friends and family to be at my beck and call or to lie serenely at my feet and look up in wonder when I call. I suppose qualities such as loyalty and trustworthy are the elements that stand the test of time.

Over the past two years I’ve had a visit from Father Chronos – Saturn in my friendship and association sector. During this time I’ve experienced frustration and in some cases betrayal of friends and close allegiances. I’ve learned (the hard way) that some people can’t be trusted and the others who are golden and loyal will always be true friends for my entire life.

The lessons learned have been magnificent – I’m very proud to say. I’ve come through this transit with a maturity and deeper understanding of what a true friend conveys. These golden few are precious to me like diamonds in the snow. Those chosen few are closer to me than words can ever say.

The Cancerian Sun phase is about home and family. There has been a deeper connection also. A strong bond with my mother, brother and sister has been formed. We are supportive of one another as we grieve the loss of our patriarch, father, friend and mate. His legacy has taught us to stand up and fight for what we think is right. Also, his act of personal demonstration throughout his life was not to let the bastards beat him and get off your butt there is a big world out there. His force is strong in our lives – like the glue that holds us together – an indestructible bond that stretches and contracts and protects us from the world and the entire nay Sayers and bullies.

We’ve developed a circle of friendship which is deepening and strengthening in every way. Our relationships are more evolved and enduring and we have begun to really like each other along the way.

The morning spread reveals the impetus for the day. The Empress poised and serene preparing for the birth of something wonderful. The sickness and pain is fading as I feel motivated to greet the day. Over the past few weeks I’ve been unwell – dragging myself through the daily obligations – now I feel a ray of sunshine beam into my frozen landscape.

The Hermit augurs a work and health evaluation. Am I on the right path? How do my career aspirations reflect in my health? Am I healthy or am I just holding it together with a flimsy string of loyalty glue and gripping with the fear of change? Tread carefully through the minefield of your fears, dear and be cautious about decision that will influence you for years. Take time to process ingesting the right formula expending the right amount of energy.

Death is a welcomed entrant in that he brings an ending of the past – poor choices, attitudes and behaviours are smashed into tiny pieces – obliterated into specks of dust. Allow the past to pass through the bowels of the discontented. It’s a new day, time to embrace a fresh start – forgotten about yesterday.

So what does it all mean? The old and new concepts are grand representations of the cycle of life. Time is of the essence to rest and contemplate a while. Time is all that matters as we take stock of our pile.

The dreamy aspects of a number seven day are perfect to reflect and consider the next phase. The eve of the New Moon eclipse is ripe for preparing and organising our thoughts, goals and wishes. What do we want for ourselves? Where do we want to go? Don’t be limited by our thoughts and fears – just release the burdens of yester-year.

The pragmatic Taurean moon grounds me in reality. It is important to take considered steps along the path to success and not race off ahead – before the die is cast. Keep your feet on the ground and your mind in the sky perched up in the eagles nest a perfect vantage to see the new horizon, don’t you think?

In the quietness of my room I contemplate my next step; careful thoughts and words exacting instructions to the navigator in my soul. The feast requires specificity when you’re ordering from the banquet of life. Ensure you have plenty of tasty morsels to satisfy your inner hedonist – insist on a main that is substantial but don’t forget about the side dishes, garnishes and dressings too.

We all want the best life – but what does it look like? How does it feel, smell, taste and would we know it if it was real? Be careful what you ask for – I’ve learned that time and time again. Now, I want to get it right and no more missing the menu or the magnificent cherry pie.

My intent is clear: when my intent is clear, my desires are fulfilled.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers