13 Days to go – Day XXVIV – Smile on your brother

The mystical Neptunian Moon pipes in celestial sounds of the 1960’s and 1970’s. The Sun is in the relationship oriented sing of Libra and the Piscean moon offers a nice dreamy aspect. It is a number five day – a day of change – so let’s hope that the change is for the better.

I survived the dinner last night without indulging in anything outside of my detox allowance. The best part was that my colleagues were supportive, caring and mindful of my dietary restrictions. I felt so blessed to sit and share a meal in a respectful environment – I was honoured to be with them. Thank you team!

The world offers the end of a productive cycle while the Magician is racing toward a new destiny. The tower suggests unexpected surprises and the star is proud and reverend.

All together now, “everyone get together and smile on your brother now.”

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

14 Days to go – Day XXVIII – Under the Boardwalk

It is a number four day – a day to lay foundations for the future. It’s also day 28 of my detox and the first day of a new phase. I am ready to launch into the third and final phase (well its not really the final phase as I plan to do a brain detox too – you know cleanse the mighty organ and get the highways and back alleys connected – more on that later).

The Moon is her, “let’s love one another Aquarian phase but I am heading under the boardwalk (at least in my imagination). I am part of the room, my physical presence is there and I will smile appropriately when required respond accordingly and respectfully. While all of these pleasing non-verbals are going on I am huggin’ and kissin’ with my baby under the boardwalk. The reason being is that I am in a conference for two days and with the great trickster going forward (Mercury ends his retrograde phase) then it is wise to keep a low profile – perhaps you would like to join me at the beach?

The Star sprinkles her magic in the morning spread – she reminds me of the dream of health, wealth and happiness. The Hierophant – always the wise tutor suggests the bullet proof armour would be appropriate today. The Emperor roars from atop of Mount Olympus – don’t succumb live your truth don’t take it anymore. It’s all well and good for the King of Gods but I am a mere mortal here on Earth. Even so, this is my life and I choose to be happy, empowered and seriously out for fun (told you about the Gemini bits were out of control sometimes!).

The day has started extra early as I am heading into work to do some pre-work before the conference. I could not miss my early morning conversation with you so I set the alarm extra early. Our sacred conversations not only keep me sane they are entertaining too!

The clock demands an entry into the real world – so here we go, “under the board walk – everyone sing – join me on a blanket with your baby – I’ll see you there.

My visions create my world: I recognise my ability to transform the invisible into the visible: the unmanifest into the manifest. So Be It.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

15 days to go – Day 27 – Light and Bright

This morning as I stood in the kitchen boiling the jug for my early morning herbal tea I had Paul McCartney singing, “Let it be” to me – this song wasn’t on the radio it was playing over and over in my head. I could hear his soft and deliberate tone whispering words of wisdom – thank you Sir Paul.

By the time the jug boiled I had the choir from “Hair” singing, “Let the sun shine in” a very musical herbal tea, don’t you think?

Well sometimes, I believe our Guides communicate messages through songs – say if a verse gets stuck or a stream of words goings around and around in messages from no where it is like a secret coded message. Message received – interpretation can take a little longer.

The Moon is in the “groovy” Age of Aquarius sign. Excuse the little hippy nostalgia but it is nice to go back to a place where your soul felt nourished. I wonder if that is what Mercury retrograde is about – a chance to go back and re-live parts of our lives that need to be re-considered. Well Mercury is about to go direct this week so we can all start to power walk forward on our treadmill – perhaps a little lighter and brighter.

It is day 27 of the detox and I am feeling rather buoyant. The nagging sense that the commitment was over the top has passed and there is a sense of ease around me. Tomorrow I begin the third and final phase called, “renew”. The stage three is focussed on supporting and enhancing the capacity of the liver to take wastes from the bloodstream, break them down and then remove them via the elimination system. I guess it is time to get that crap of my liver! My intention is to embrace this phase as I’ve done in the previous two stages – so wish me luck!

Let the sunshine in, let the sunshine in – let’s bring peace to humanity!

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Peace sign from: http://www.peacebypeacedesigns.com/id23.html

16 days to go – Day XXVI – Sunshine and laughter

“The human race has one effective weapon and that is laughter.” Mark Twain

The Moon is in earth Capricorn which is grounding and offers a safe haven for my watery sun sign. Quite often I find comfort in my Capricorn North Node (or Dragon’s Head) as he reminds me of the importance of project planning my life. My natal north node lurks in the fifth house of creativity and fun – and for some time I considered – what fun is it to have stodgy Capricorn there? As I matured I began to realise the importance of a structured and organised work/life balance. More importantly I began to glean how a ritual such as writing each morning in my journal is an asset to my creative journey. I guess the pure escapism and innovations comes from the Moon and Jupiter in Gemini in the 9th.

Yesterday I grabbed my copy of Wellbeing Astrology 2010 (now in circulation) and have been digesting each morsel over the weekend (of course it is the only thing I can eat! – metaphorically speaking). I was reading my Sun sign prediction by Kelly Surtess (well done Kelly – a great read) and felt very blessed. It’s not as though my predictions are better or worse than anyone else’s its just that the Sun was beaming into my lounge room while gulping down the potential for next year.

It’s day 26 and I feel a sense of comfort in the detox. I am researching the next phase and am about to embark upon the third and final stage, with more supplements and brews to integrate. One scoop of this and two capsules of that over 42 days supported by a healthy diet and voila – easy as that – a healthy body! I wish it was as easy as that – although if it was easy then it wouldn’t be life changing or a healthy improvement to a pretty amazing life.

This weekend I’ve decided to reorganise my wardrobe and work on some more recycling of clothes. I have a couple of NoniB lay-bys and they are getting close to finalisation so I thought I would review the status of my wardrobe and move the winter garments back and bring the spring/summer ones to the front. Sometimes when I do this I find outfits I’ve not worn for ages and it is just like wearing a whole new ensemble – very exciting.

The Sun has sprawled across the Gundaroo escarpment. Rain has nurtured the winter scorched hills and valleys. This watery sacrament has been revered by most Canberra’s inhabitants over the past couple of days but now as I start my day the golden rays offer reassurance and a source of golden enjoyment.

The star stands proudly in her glory and innocence. She is a beacon of inspiration. The Magician offers the tools necessary to carve out a fulfilling destiny: wands for creativity and contentment; cups for emotional fulfilment, sensitivity and intuition; pentacles a source of financial support and swords to cut away the crap and see the picture without fear or favour.

The Devil stalks my morning spread with his feted breath and austere demeanour. He reminds me of the oppressive-ness of our fear – how we are thwarted in our stride while moving out of our comfort zone. What if I take that job? What will it be like? Will I like it? Or is it a step backward? Or what if I throw out that dress and cannot afford a new one? Our minds are constantly bombarded with the fears of tomorrow instead of the opulence of today.

The Hierophant is a comforting soul. His astuteness borne out of pain offers respite should we burn our fingers from the hungry flames of change? Consolation arrives in the gift box called wisdom.

It’s a number two day of cooperation and duality – the balance of work, rest and play. Of course there is one more ingredient in that life-sustaining brew – and that my friend is laughter. Seek the perpetual hot pot but don’t forget to sprinkle in sunshine and laughter. Here’s to a good belly laugh – ho ho ho!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

17 Days to go – Day XXV – Slow down!

“There is more to life than increasing its speed.” Mahatma Gandhi

It is Saturn-Day (Saturday) time to enjoy the pleasures of my hard work. It’s time to slow down and nurture our minds, bodies and fill our souls with the passion of creativity, lust and wonder.

It’s a 10/1 day – endings and beginnings – it’s time to shed the obligations and responsibilities of the current cycle and embrace the possibilities of a new phase.

The Moon taps into our creative pool – dreams, visions and prompts from beyond the curtain of reality.

Justice conquers all fears of incompetence and insignificance – forge ahead in the direction of your dreams.

Hermes, the Magician is adept at playing the game – duality of personae and purpose – shape shifter extraordinaire – there are no limitations in a creative soul.

The Sun shines brightly into our damaged hearts – truth, love and beauty are the battle plans to win the war against fear and oppression. Don’t let them take your self esteem – it’s yours – it’s sacred the perfect vessel to launch your exit strategy – honour it – put it up on your pedestal – keep it in a locked box and never give the key to anyone!

Last night driving home from work I confessed to my gal pal that a six week detox is far too long. I was feeling the drudgery of being mindful of what I can or can’t eat or drink – I felt that time was my enemy. She reminded me in her usual Leo optimistic retort, “You are nearly there – keep it up!” I shrugged and said, sure, why not? I felt unmotivated but reminded of my commitment.

This morning I realised how “time” is such a force in our lives. I immediately began humming, “Time is on your side” by the Rolling Stones. Is time on our side? Do we have to waste in a job that does not fit? Are we continually pressured by the time-lines and delivery outcomes? What happens if there is too much time? Do we fill the void with nonsense? So how should we act when there is a glut of time? Do we honour each millisecond and drink it in slowly, deliberately and respectfully?

This is your time – celebrate every minute – have the time of your life!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Picture from : http://www.librarising.com/astrology/celebs/mahatmagandhi.html

18 Days to go – Day XXIV – And the word is love!

“One word frees us all of the weight and pain of life: that word is love.” Sophocles

This morning I woke up to the song, “All you need is love” playing in my head. Love has been revered by many artists over time – even as far back as the early Greek philosophers.

Last night I dreamt of Patrick Swayze. Actually, I felt his presence just before I feel asleep. He appeared like a bright golden shinning aura right next to my bed. He said, “It’s beautiful here, Jewells, just like the move – Ghost”. I smiled and replied, “Be a light shinning bright and find love.”

I drifted off to sleep and entered dream land. During my dream I ran across lush meadows filled with flowers. Patrick was playing hide and seek. He balanced himself perfectly on a log that bridged a small brook and did perfect Russian leaps across fields of sunflowers. I sat watching him on a chequered rug and laughing raucously soaking up his youthful and playful spirit.

As I watched I thought, “he is creating his own heaven – I am an observer. Birds sang, butterflies fluttered by and then Patrick approached me on a white stallion – a beast who was proud and perfect in every way. I’ve come to say goodbye for now – I’ll be back when you think of me.” And he galloped away in a cloud of golden dust.

Patrick’s visit is strange because I’ve not really been devoted to Swayze throughout his career. Sure, I’ve enjoyed his characters in Dirty Dancing and Ghost. I’ve loves his spirit and his positive outlook on life and more importantly adored his commitment to his wife. I feel honoured that that he has taken a moment to drop in and remind me that we are all capable of creating our own heaven on earth. Our thoughts and imagination are such potent tools of creation. So today I choose to create a world of love – everybody sing now.

The next phase of my dream evolved and I am in a crowded room with the Beatles singing, “All you need is love!” I step out of the large room and began to walk the streets. I was in New York City and I felt lost but comfortable being lost. I pulled out my cell phone to ring Yoko Lennon but then cursed as I had forgotten her number. I was going to drop by for a cuppa and a chat about astrology. I needed to tell her something important. I looked around the buildings that surrounded me and thought, “Now where am I?” Why can’t I find the right place? I took the elevator to the top of the Empire State building and went to the edge of the observation deck to find where I needed to go. I was getting frustrated but still felt quite jovial. I decided to climb on to the top of the building and then spring from building to building in search of where I needed to be (a bit like spider woman). Eventually, I ended up on the top of the Statue of Liberty. I was sitting on her crown with one of the spikes between my legs. I sat comfortably for quite some time and was happy to dangle my legs over the side and wait for the right moment – to? I don’t know. And I am uncertain what that dream means – I will get back to you when it reveals itself!

My morning spread offers the Sun, Justice, The Emperor and The Star. What a line up? Especially after a wonderful magical dreamy extravaganza! An overall analysis of these cards is: a positive flow of energy in my career – a green light, possibly a contract to move forward – perhaps even a promotion or change of status. Whatever the outcome I see it as a positive move with some authority and confidence building.

It’s a number nine day of resolution, conclusion and empowerment. It is day twenty four of the program. I am feeling very positive – possibly a touch pious. I’ve come this far, stuck to the regime and I can see the finish line.

Keep the dream alive!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

19 Days to go – Day XXIII – Beauty is truth

The Moon is in Sagittarius and the Sun is in Libra on this number eight day of balance and harmony. There are some heavy duty aspects taking place in the skies such as: Mercury opposition to Saturn and Sun square Pluto.

So what does this all mean? Essentially, it means – be on guard! This is not a dire warning but a gentle reminder that these alignments can cause friction, arguments and ego based conflicts. So ground yourself and wear the armour of protection.

One of the most important reasons I admire Pluto is that he “uncovers the truth” (eventually). As a Scorpion woman in middle youth I’ve come to learn (the hard way) that you cannot hide the truth from the Lord of the Underworld. He deconstructs our layers of false-ness that ultimately reveal the truth. In essence, he takes us down to the dark place within ourselves and then offers us a flash light and a bottle of water and tells us to find our way out.

The Grand Master

So why do I continue to praise my Royal consort? He has been such a powerful teacher and he does not tolerate denial. If you embrace the power of Pluto you can be sure to delve deep into the realm of possibilities. He sits silently in the wings while you allow your life to pass by and then asks the question: “so what have you been doing all of your life? Are you living your truth? Or are you hiding behind your habits and addictions? Are you doing the best you can or are you skimming the surface? Dig deep and you’ll find the truth.” And that is what I do!

Eventually, I’ve found the courage to excavate the superfluous to uncover the truth. John Keats reminds us, “Beauty is truth, truth is beauty – that is all ye know on Earth and all you need to know.”

In search of the truth

It is day 23 of the six week journey to find the truth. I’ve passed the half-way mark this week and feeling good about my efforts. I’ve overcome many temptations and held on to my mantra for a healthy lifestyle. I feel good and proud.

The world offers completion and richness to my spread. The Star is beautiful – a picture of innocence – Aphrodite in all her glory. The Moon glimmers with beams of creativity and optimism in her Sagittarian phase. Peeling back the layers of my vulnerability have uncovered the truth – life is beautiful – enjoy your day!

Peace and Love,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

20 Days to go – Day 22 – You’ve gotta have Friends!

Last night as I sat scratching my head as to why my 11th house has been so challenging recently I realised that Saturn has been visiting. Saturn, or Chronos is a great teacher of patience, responsibility and slow and steady accomplishes all things worth while. He has been in my 11th house of friends and associations for nearly 2 years and now it is time for him to move on. The good part about the Saturn visit is that he always leaves a gift by the door.

Saturn’s visit to my 11th house has raised the importance of friendships. I have tested many friends over the past couple of years and have felt Father Time guiding me with his influential whisper in my ear as to is capable of standing the test of time in my circle of friends. Robert Louis Stevenson suggests, “A friend is a gift you give yourself.” And I am inclined to agree with him whole heartedly.

My friends are such a blessed gift to me – they are wise, funny and certainly enduring. The friends who’ve remained within the inner sanctum have remained steadfast. Throughout my metamorphosis and have applauded the changes and nursed the battle scars with their words of encouragement while creating a healing ointment for the scars upon my soul. I have deduced that family are the words from my heart and my friends are the music of my soul.

Today is a number seven day of inner reflection. I enjoy the number seven days as it encourages me to contemplate on some strategic planning. Quite often when challenging situations occur I prefer the quiet retreat, smile sweetly and back away from the obstacle. It is days like this I prefer to ponder the appropriate solutions rather than react.

The Hanged Man agrees – don’t react (even though Mars is encouraging me in my 10th house of career and public recognition). Become the warrior and retreat under a sycamore tree and lie in wait and draw up battle plans (Mars always likes warring).

The Star inspires hope and understanding – patience and prudence. She acknowledges the battle scars but prefers ingenuity rather than conflict. The Magician motivates me to utilise all of the tricks of the trade (Mercury – his ruler is retrograde at the moment so don’t say or do anything you may regret later). Listen to the voice of reason and be patient. In the meantime bask in the glory of friendship and love!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

21 Days to go – Day XXIII – water your dreams

I am half-way on my six week detoxification. Woo hoo! It is exciting to be at the mid point of such a huge undertaking. I have to be honest and say that I thought I’d never make it this far – well that is not entirely true – I thought it would have been more of a struggle than it has been. Now this feels as though I am one huge step closer to my dream for a healthier body.

The Chariot carries me down the highway in two directions – I am in control of the reigns and I am leading the charge to a positive outcome.

The Star glistens brightly offering optimism and cultivates success – stay focused on the horizon and you will overcome adversity and negativity.

The Lovers represent the balanced principles of my significant relationships – communication and harmony reap their own reward.

It is a number six day of commitment and responsibility and I feel confident that I am here at this juncture by my design. Thos who have gone before me have fulfilled their plans just as I am fulfilling mine.

Lao Tzu reminds us: “water your dreams with optimism and solutions and you will cultivate success. Always be on the lookout for ways to turn a problem into an opportunity. Always be on the lookout for ways to nurture your dreams.”

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

25 Days to go – Day XVIII – River Deep

"When you do things for your soul you feel a river moving in you!” Rumi

The Moon in Virgo requires attention to detail. Mercury (communication) offers an opening for re-negotiating. And we are on the verge of a new moon which inspires new beginnings. The New Moon phase is a time to plant seeds (wishes) and there is freshness about this time. The storm has passed and the dry desolate landscape of my life is alive with new shoots.

It is day XVIII of my detox and I feel a little battle weary. I’m tired and the benefits of the current phase are not obvious. Clearly, I’ve not lost anymore weight and I am disappointed. Even so I forge ahead with the commitment I’ve made in the hope that the results will justify this lack lustre chapter.

The river of my journey has breached into still waters. It is an unfathomable pond with a water spout lying dormant beneath the surface. The charge of energy comes from my internal motivation to rise up and grove into the day.

The weariness subsides and I feel rather excited. The weekend is here and I am off to see my grandsons. It’s always a fantastic adventure when we visit. So it’s cheerio for now and have a great day.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

22 Days to go – Day XXII – a pebble in the pond

The Moon is in my natal sun sign of Scorpio. The day is a number five day - changes and movement. There is something in the air that feels as if a subtle shift is taking place. The tide is turning and its time to move on.

Promises made so long ago are coated with experience and layered in disappointment. High hopes have been deflated and now mediocre mountains are covered with weeds. It’s a new ay and this Scorpio moon insists upon courage and determination to overcome the demons of my past.

Temperance has blessed my reading this morning – she is a kind and gentle soul. Her guidance is comforting as she strives for balance and a philosophical resolution.

The Chariot takes my dreams and deeds to destinations unknown returning karmic pay loads in surprising outcomes and significant lessons.

I am almost halfway with my detox commitment. I feel good and proud of the effort and the well-being status. I’ve made some changes over the past three weeks but there are many more to come.

I’ve learned a great deal about myself during this process. I’ve also been privy to the changes of other’s behaviour. Personally it has been an awareness of the Scorponic resoluteness which come to the fore. The change in others has been less significant. What I’ve noticed is that when one person in the group alters their rituals then the team regards this as somewhat suspicious. New behaviours must be negotiated and the impact of the changes vibrates throughout the pond. Essentially the changes I’ve made have become the pebble in the pond.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

23 Days to go – Day XXI – Country road

The Libran Moon seeks balance and harmony. The grandparent duties have been delivered with love and devotion. The day with my two little cherubs has been magical and uplifting. All of us have taken turns in the care and nurturing and everyone has felt their inner child rejuvenated.

Today we are heading home along the road we’ve travelled so many times. My eyes gravitate skyward and gaze on sky monsters gliding by on gossamer highways. Grey castles with white turrets protrude into the heavens and retrieve the nourishing mist. Moisture laden moats trickle under the drawbridge. Across the cotton wool exit brave knights gallop out on to the dry plains of our heartland. They carry promises of rain to the drought affected farmers.

Spring lambs jostle for milky teats. Gullets filled and they cavort across spindly playgrounds. Long dark shadows drape across the backbone of the Great Divide echoes of home taunt my soul.

Dry lakes and statuesque wind farms motivate the spirit of the land. Don’t give up – reach for the stars – broker a deal and bring the rain to nurture our future. The pulse of the land captures my imagination and whisks it off to futuristic visions. I am poised in the loveliness of the green fields and lush crops.

The weekend was a wonderful and uplifting. Home is where the heart is but the soul is sated in the lives of my family. Thank you for being the restitution of my life.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

24 Days to go – Day XIX – New Moon in Virgo

Loreena McKennitt lulls me into a Celtic bliss. Her melodic seductive tones are engaging as she sings The Mummer’s Dance (Book of Secrets). Her sons transport me into a lush grove and circles of magic and repose. I am uplifted and connected to the sounds of the forest in the early morning light.

Actually, I have returned to my childhood residence (my mother’s house) for the weekend. I am here to reconnect with family. Last night I slept (soundly) in my old bedroom. Familiar visitors come to me during the night to heal the scars of sadness and disappointment. The crash and bang of the Universe has played out in my life and now it is time to surrender and gather my strength ready to move on.

I am reminded, as above – so below! I’m not denying that the treble eclipse season and the crash of the heavy weights (Saturn-v- Uranus) has not left me a little bewildered and somewhat punch drunk. However, as the New Moon peeped through the crack of my discontent I felt a rush of hope. The dark phase has given me a clean slate to write the next act of my script. This morning the seeds of optimism, health, well-being, love and joy are planted in the richness of this fertile meadow.

Throughout my life I’ve been a ware of the cycles of the Moon. From the intensity of the full moon to the opulence of the new moon I’ve honoured and integrated changes within me. The individual cycles have created seasonal shifts with planting, sowing and reaping. These phases have influenced my thoughts, emotions and ultimately my world.

This New Moon is a season for me to gather my individual skills and abilities and to forge ahead into a new territory. Saturn is supportive this shift – Chronos loves the project plan. Goals and outcomes have been considered and I am off to satisfy my hearts desire.

It’s day XIX of my detox and I’ve stared the day with a cup of warm water. The cleansing of my system is integrity to the purity of my mind. Negative thoughts and rancid conversations are rinsed from my aura and I am open to receive the positive and fresh experiences coming my way.

Hermes offers all of the tools necessary to carry out a magical future. Prometheus suggests going with the flow; whereas the Moon in all her splendour shines brightly in my spread offering messages of creativity, loyalty and peace.

The morning song of Ms McKennitt pacifies me and I am in a trans-like state. The journey of reflection is a powerful elixir for my soul. Decisions are made; plans are in place for the next episode of my alchemy.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

26 Days to go – Day XVII – Head banging

Confucius reminds us: “If you think in terms of a year, plant a seed; if in terms of ten years plant trees; if in terms of one hundred years, teach the people.”

Have you ever been too grumpy to write? Have you ever been seething – so much so it has clouded your vision? Have you be so disappointed in your current state of affairs that you fee so bloody minded in your pursuit of anger? When do we stop banging our heads against a brick wall? Why do we continue until our brains are mush? Stop!!!

It’s day 17 on my detox and my weight has not dropped for two weeks – disappointment city. I feel let down and I feel cheated by my own body.

An old would is gaping in my soul and I feel all I am offered is salt to rub in. I feel battered and bruised by my current situation – however, I can’t help but blame myself for my role in this violent relationship. I am not being abused physically of course; it is directed emotionally and spiritually. My participation is that I am still allowing it to happen.

It’s a 10/1 day – endings and beginnings and it is time to stop this abusive love affair. I must rescue any remnants of my self esteem and move on. There is no other alternative. When your pleas fall on deaf ears and sign language does not work then give them the final sign and hit the highway and don’t come back no more, no more.

The Tower represents the lightning bolts out of the blue; the constant barrage of slights and toxic javelins.

Judgement is rebirth loud and strong – step away from the oppression and float with the Angels toward salvation.

The Magician taunts me with his promise of infinity; the upside down number eight beckons me toward destinations unknown. It’s a brave new world out there Julia, don’t be thwarted by the condemnation of others.

The wheel of fortune braces me in a crash position – ready for the fall out of recriminations of the past – it’s not up to you to change others it’s up to you to survive.

Yoda’s wise words echo in my conscious mind – “Try not. Do or do not. there is no try!” The stage is set, to teach by doing rather than the circular arguments and declarations of worthiness.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

27 Days to go – Day XVI – Contented souls

A number nine day presents itself on the numerological calendar. This is a day of resolution and empowerment. My current detox quest is entering day 16 and I am part the way into my new phase. It feels as though the stripping away of comfort food and tasty slashing drinks is a memory (a sugary memory). Now, my days are poised over a cup of herbal tea and rice snacks. The good part of that is – its not a huge impost – does that mean I’ve turned my life around completely – maybe? Or perhaps a noticeable shift in the benefits of healthy eating – I sure hope so!

The Hierophant, elegant in his royal regalia reminds me of the wisdom of my current mission. “Evolve or die, Julia” is sound out from his wise deliberations.

The Hermit shines his light on my current path – cobble stones and sticks make way for gold and silver stones.

The High Priestess acknowledges my journey so far. The harsh reality of withdrawal and the darkness of sitting in a room of sugar scoffers and smiling sweetly – never mind – my sugar is the sweet smell of success and the vitality in my stride.

Temperance glides in and lifts my eyes to the horizon – it will be a brave new world – believe in yourself and you will be victorious in your challenge for transformation.

At this significant signpost I feel more alive, vibrant, healthy and alert. My energy is sustainable and I am less inclined to slouch in front of the TV and knit or surf the web looking for x, y, z. My mind is stimulated active, curious and questioning – my body feels invigorated healthy vibrant and high functioning. The benefits are there – the results I desired some months ago are creeping by stealth overtaking the sullen and toxic behaviours of yester-year. I am feeling healthy and that is the greatest reward – I feel good and am aspiring to be great! Buddha once said: “Health is the greatest gift, contentment the greatest wealth, faithfulness the best relationship.”

The tumultuous alignments in the skies are abating – Mercury is still in a backward motion however, I am power walking down the road toward my divine destination.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

28 Days to go – Day XV – Still waters run deep

To the mind that is still, the whole Universe surrenders.”

The benefice of the wheel of fortune sprawls into my morning spread. At one level the turning of the card offers joy, enlightenment and a sigh of relief. On the other side the wheel reminds me of the continual revolutions that push our lives along – Lady Luck do your job!

The High Priestess, Persephone encourages patience an prudence – be deliberate in your actions and don’t be wasteful (of your energy and time).

The Devil, an austere figure boldly takes me where I am most afraid to go – the sullage pit of my fears – the grease trap of emotions that lurk between the grates of my discontent.

Venus and Jupiter are alright tonight but the turmeric in the cauldron, Saturn and Uranus aim to spice it up. Saturn’s accompaniment is more represented by the bed of rise where Uranus is the tincture of dread – if you put in one drop too much then it is at your peril.

How can we digest this stew without burning our mouths out? How can a candlelit dinner with the string quartet (provided by Venus) playing soppy ballads sung by Neptune combined with the melting pot of Saturn and Uranus evolve into a romantic quest? There is one more ingredient in this dinner date – Mercury retrograde.

Mercury retrograde has the potential to toss in the wrong aperitifs or even send you to the wrong restaurant.

I guess caution and preparedness is the perfect side dish and if all else fails, a food fight at the end.

The constant flows of messages flood my mind. The ever increasing to do list takes two ticks forward and three back. The way I see it, is our lives are a constant monologue inside our head. The questions, the expectations, the memories that haunt us, the stuff ups, the invasion on our sense of dignity, the poor choices of the past with a death mask – this constant streaming causes our own internal chaos and eventually projects out into the world.

Today I am mindful of the status in my mind and choose to take the needle off the record player and sit in my favourite chair and indulge in peace and solitude.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

29 Days to go – Day XIV – light the light!

“We each are gifted in a unique and important way. It is our privildege and our adventure to discover our own special light.” Mary Dunbar

Day seven proposes a inwards spiritual journey. It’s a day of contemplation. This day of the nine day cycle offers us a moment to reflect on where we are and quite possibly pose a different direction. It is a time to discover our unique talents or change the course we are to ensure that we are back on track to where we need to be.

Life is a journey of self-discovery – of simple truths and difficult choices, sometimes we stray away from the vision we once held for ourselves, giving up our personal mission in lieu of every day responsibilities. Our hearts desire can sometimes simmer gently on the embers. Today is a great day to reignite that flame.

The familiar messages of passion and following ones destiny has been evident in the book – John Lennon: The Life. This biography reminds me of the pilot light within that eventually becomes the slow burning flame and once ignited the combustion of dreams is magnified. One such event was when John was introduced to Paul McCartney. As soon as the veil of suspicion was lowered the two young boys realised that there was magic in the words and music.

John’s drive, disappointment and fuelling the fire with his own passion was overtaken and thrust to a new threshold with the randomness and indulgent spark of Berlin, the tempering of the fire during periods of reflection after the return to Liverpool.

I’ve often thought what would have happened if the four young men hadn’t got together – if their flames did not ignite the mania that spread throughout our youth. I assume that if the Beatles did not exist then they would have pursued ordinary lives with a smattering of creativity. Then I realise that John, a disenfranchised soul, looking for something outside of him to quench the yearning would have fallen into a creative melting pot. He was unrelenting, bloody minded in his pursuit of his, “special light”.

The Moon and Chiron offer a taste of forgiveness today. This special time is for healing and enjoying this lunar remedy. Anoint your soul with this cosmic alignment. Remember to honour your special talents in a way that serves your soul journey.

It is day fourteen of the detox and I am doing fine. My spirits are soaring with the eagles and I am leaving the buzzards in the trees. I am grateful for my life.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

30 Days to go – day XIII - tilting at windmills

Our body is the windmill and love is the water.

The Moon returns to her natal house of Cancer. She pulls up a recliner, clicks on the TV with her remote and picks up one of her “girlie mags”. Scattered around her are delectable treats, sugary liaisons and emotion swilling ambrosia. She is back home and its time to her lun-li-ness. From this lofty vantage this cosy feeling is ushered toward all of us mere mortals.

Who is that dark figure lurking out there on horizon? Is a planet? Is a star? It’s a planetoid… Oh! No! Pluto has come to visit. He is sending her (the Moon) deep primal messages encouraging her to change her indulgent ways.

“Don’t take away my treaties!” she begs. “No I can’t live possibly eat carrot sticks and ready health magazines! It’s my 2.5 days of the month and all I want to do is relax – please don’t disturb this special time. It is a time to indulge myself with what I love to do.

He does not speak. He won’t engage. He doesn’t need to! His gaze is hypnotic and penetrating. He is Pluto – Lord of the Underworld. There is no more to be said, now is there?

Pluto is turning to direct motion after being retrograde since April. This forward motion is significant especially for Cancerians and Capricorns. However, we can all feel his presence lurking somewhere in the unconscious motivations of our emotional realm. He is encouraging us to drop the toxic baggage at the nearest station and purchase a ticket to ride to a new location.

Its day 13 of my detoxification. The impetus for this commitment was primarily to cleanse the toxins out of my body and regain healthy high functions organs. The ancillary benefit has been the relinquishing of negative thoughts, emotions and behaviours. I’m not done yet – obviously – still a little self-imposed roasting over a low flame.

My pilot light is my co-ruler, Pluto. He appears as the lighthouse to my fears. His light shines brightly over the rocky outcrop of my emotions. He is unrelenting in the pursuit of my evolution. And he is unyielding as my coach. His presence demands I relinquish the unwanted flotsam and jetsam from my life.

His demanding baritone voice bellowing, “Why do you want to carry that crap around with you? Why do you choose to be miserable on such a wonderful day? And you know you can’t change another person’s behaviour – it is you who must conform to fit the mould – at least for now!”

His taunts are deafening. Since I’ve never been one to get the message on the first instigation my lessons have been painful. In the past I have chosen to rebel and staunch in my resolve not to follow the path of least resistance instead carving out a painful road filled with potholes and broken limbs. No, Pluto’s ingénue had to do it the hard way – until now!

In this phase of my life I’ve mellowed, conformed and have learned to smile on cue. The crumpled face smoothed and crossed arms unfolded. Now I prefer a more elegant and demure demeanour and allowing the flow of energy to transit my body with ease.

The chariot offers a different route and I am up for the ride. Hop on board if you are tired or distressed and skip along the yellow brick road – where are those ruby red shoes?

The wheel of fortune spins in with the great benefactor’s blessing. The fool races out of the cave and suggest we travel lightly.

The Empress, Gaia, Earth mother, elite coaxes us into a new phase of self-love and soul nourishment.

It’s Sunday and the Sun is beaming through my window. It is time to rise and celebrate the ay – another opportunity to be a winner in your own race. So Be It!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

31 days to go – day XII - Untying the knots

“Seek the wisdom that will untie your knot, see the path that demands your whole being.” Rumi

The Lunar Moon sits silently in her 9th house. She pulls up a cushion and in a composed demeanour folds one leg under another and contemplates her naval. Rumi’s quote (above) begs the question; must we always seek the path that demands our whole being?

As part of the Pluto in Leo generation I’ve often felt the devotion to transformation. In some respects I’ve felt that I am unconsciously drawn into situations where the secret mission is to create change (Pluto in Leo in the 12th house). In most respects it is not about transformation for others instead the metamorphosis within vibrates out into my environment.

Over my life I’ve undertaken significant changes – to my appearance, attitude, friends, jobs, and living arrangements. The driving force of my question is two fold: curiosity and the desire for challenge. Outcomes dictate that I am in a loop of constant evolution. This is fine of course until I push the boundaries of my relationships. I live or work with – family doesn’t count as they are stuck with me – sorry L

This life of mind is always in a state of flux. Why? Because I am in it! Yes, I drive the agenda (most times) – living a multi-faceted existence – the reality or normalcy drops in and the expectations are set – the mild-mannered business suit is peeled away and the outer layers reflect the inner gypsy. I suppose that this is “normal” for most people – maybe?

I once read about a postman in England who lived a double life. A diligent public servant by day and then at night he was a prolific writer. Can you glean how he lived this life of duplicity? One moment he is delivering letters through an inanimate object and the next he is the hero in a duel with the latest villain – how ripe is that? I suppose we all have the Superman complex going on?

The Chariot collects my dreams and hurtles them down the road in two directions.

Hermit warns, watch your step Girlie – it is a rocky world out there!

The Moon tickles my fancy – facilitating creative pursuits – pick up your pen and open your heart. A journey revealed is a healing wand. Don’t be afraid to be vulnerable. It’s easy to be human J

The Lovers demands respect and communication, equality and integrity in love; a delicate balance of loving yourself and significant others

It’s day 12 of my detox and I am preparing for the next phase: renew – this phase is about repair and renew my digestive lining and replace bad bacteria with beneficial ones called probiotics. These good bacteria have a number of healthy actions, including controlling the growth of bad bacteria, reducing inflammation and helping me absorb nutrients effectively. Once established a small army inside my body will protect my digesting and seek to remove invading organisms – lovely!

In honour of Stage: 1 remove – and having a body scrub and vischy shower and then off to my favourite hairdresser (in the whole wide world). She is a gorgeous creative Leo woman whom I wish I could pick up after each session and take home with me. She is honest and decisive. When I sit in her chair and suggest a radical change she gently guides me back to a hair do I can live with. As I leave the salon I consider – it wasn’t what I asked for but it works. Pure magic!

The dye is cast for my day; ritualistic expectations and interludes of pampering – perfect balance. It’s the weekend and a time to relax, indulge – create the world you want in the time you’ve got – enjoy and don’t waste a minute. For we all know that the business suits present themselves far too quickly!

Peace and love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

32 Days to go – a new lunar phase

“Be master of mind rather than mastered by your mind.” Zen Proverb

The Moon has moved from Taurus into Gemini. I have to be honest here and say that I lurv the Moon in my natal Gemini. When this phase occurs it feels cosy. Well, only for a second because in a flash the quick silver Mercury pulses into a myriad of directions. I guess that is why I like rainbows so much – the remind me of the beauty of our imagination – brilliant, fleeting, inspirational and illusive.

I adore having my moon in Gemini for a millions reasons but most of all because she gives a voice or rationalises my deep dark Scorpio bits. Conversely, my natal Mercury is in Scorpio so you can see my dilemma. While I want to skip the light fantastic over the deep dark forest of my emotional realm – Mercury in Scorpio says, nah don’t think so dahlink (very Marlena Deitrich). I guess we all have aspects of our charts that we love and those we could pack up in a box and send to Siberia.

So how can we embrace the “not so pretty bits”, motivate the lazy traits and turn the silk purse out of a horse behind. I propose that we use the power of the mind. What do you think?

Of course you realise that this suggestion is purely motivated by my ninth house brimming with Moon and Jupiter collaborating in a philosophical love quest. Whatever works for you! No, I’m not being flippant (this time) it’s true, what ever rocks your world and beyond (no OTT – ).

It’s day 11 on the detox-o-rama – blah, blah, blah – so what, big deal – well at least today anyway!

Judgement rebirth, letting go and moving on – thank goodness it’s bloody-well time (Oh just made a Saturn-ised joke!).

Justice slicing away the unwanted, - geez – I wish – a little off the thigh please – no both you ninny!

Hierophant commands – let’s get serious, serious, serious – no don’t think so oh wise one – too much fun to be had!

Ah my Mentor, Hermes – the Magician – where has all the magic gone? It’s Friday get out your boogie shoes and tape dance through the day. So Be It.

Peace and Love,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

33 Days to go – habit forming

The Moon in Taurus links lovingly to luscious Venus today enticing us down the road of indulgence, I am aware but not alarmed. To overcome this delicious seduction I’ve decided to fill my day with long term fantasies of how I will look and feel in the future when my detox is over. I am off to the shops today – yes a day off to take care of necessary personal business, errands, a little retail therapy, maybe a little spray at the perfume counter and finally, the perfect end to the day with a MLD (manual lymphatic drainage).

I’ve deliberately booked a MLD treatment for today as a way of assisting the detoxification and as another reminder to stay committed to my goal. It’s day 10 and the shrill of toxins leaving my body is down to a dull chant. I feel that I’ve passed a milestone at seven days but now the grove is happening, the resistance has progressed to acceptance and habits (good and healthy) are forming. More importantly, the food pushers have moved the rhetoric on to other questions, “so what are you going to do after the detox?”

Good question: and my response is, make a conscious effort to embed this healthy lifestyle in my future maintenance program. I am sure that I would find it difficult to be so regimented for the rest of my life. However, if I feel the benefits are giving me the natural high e.g. feeling good, skin glowing, clothes fit with ease etc. etc., then perhaps this transition phase will be my life choice.

Something happened yesterday which made me think that living like this would be a good option. Some said, “wow your eyes are so blue and are glistening with a vibrant glow. I thought, no, can’t be and I looked in the mirror and the grey green shades of blue had turned into a brilliant blue. I was astounded. In such a short time I felt totally amazed with such a significant change. These are the moments I will think about today.

Another change that took place was the desire to read. Over the past ten days or so I’ve not picked up a book. Sure, I am constantly reading at work all day in fact I read from a computer screen – but this is work and I must do just that. Sadly, I’ve simply not wanted to read anything for fun or enjoyment. However, last night I grabbed a book that has been sitting on my small book stand in the bedroom. It is a book I had brought after the John Lennon Exhibition in Ballarat. The book is: John Lennon: The Life – by Philip Norman.

The book is the size of two house bricks but of course the subject matter is compelling. I picked up the book last night and digested every word with enthusiasm. It is an easy read and most certainly very well written. I found myself sated by the short journey into John Winston’s life.

Previously, I was aware of his tumultuous childhood. The uncertainaity and the chaos of family life had left him wanting that sublime connect with his mother, Julia. I feel sad as I turned the pages of his youth and considered how thee events had etched addictive behaviours into his psyche. The gap between reality and fantasy was a painful canyon in his mind.

I thought about my own life and how my behaviour had impacted on those I love. This made me even sadder. I, too, was an unsatisfied and reckless “Julia” and now I wonder what damage I have caused to others. I tried to forgive myself and make amends in my higher consciousness. Have I healed the scars of imperfection? All I can say is, Julia is a work in progress!

“If you are respectful of habit, constantly honouring the worthy, four things increase:
Long life,
Beauty,
Happiness,
Strength

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

34 Days to go – Possibilities

Over the past few days I’ve seen lots of numbers presenting in triple e.g. 111; 222; 333; 555. Today we have a calendar date of 999. Usually the triple or quad presentations are indicators of Angelic communication. I’m not certain what the 999 represents – perhaps I will tell you tomorrow. Ironically, it is day 9 of my detox – how wonderfully spooky!

Number 9 usually suggests empowerment and resolution. However, today’s date is: 9th, 9th month and year 2009 (11/2) = 2 the day calculates as a number two day; the number two is about partnerships and agreements perhaps (even stretching the possibilities here) a day of cooperation and collaboration – how nice?

I feel the blessing of Venus invigorating me with her glittering presence in my spread. She shines like a star dancing in the scattered rainbows across my room. I feel light, bright and breezy. Apollo the Sun God plays his golden harp as the lovers embrace – life is good do not waste a moment.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

35 Days to go – contentment and peace – Buddha

The intensity of the Aries moon has passed and now the moon has settled into the Venus-ruled Taurean phase. Taurean’s are practical and very sensual people they love good food, pampering – the banquet of life really.

It is a 10/1 day – a day of endings and beginnings. I feel this energy fill my life with the end of the harsh reality of the detox. There have been times over the past week when I’ve really struggled with withdrawal from coffee and giving up some other delectable pleasures – not to mention the headaches – but I have pursued and now I feel good.

Temperance offers an omniscient perspective guiding me above the sea of adversity. She is a beacon of hope. Her poise and elegance is compelling – encouraging me to leave the chaos of my emotions and float with her on an air of tranquillity.

The Moon facilitates creativity. She is representative of the arts. Her presence in my life is the orb of inspiration – encouraging me to honour my creative journey.

The World is my oyster. Venus, Goddess of love, beauty and wealth surrounds me in an abundant garland of riches. My mantra is: I am healthy, wealthy and wise. Her vulnerability captures my imagination and takes me to far away destinations.

The Sun is peeping through my window. The grey, volatiles skies of yesterday have exploded volumes of water and now that the storms have passed we a greeted with clarity. The sky is crystal clear and the view is pristine and fresh. My outer world reflects this current phase of my inner kingdom. The rough and tumble clashes of the internal torment have eased and now I can take a long, deep, cleansing breathe. I feel blessed in many ways and now it is time to rest.

Buddha once said:

Health is the greatest gift,
Contentment the greatest wealth,
Faithfulness the best relationship

These words spoken so long ago are the mantra for my day. I am at peace – I am enjoying the moment. This is the instant of realisation that I am the creator of my world and I am satisfied with my creation.

Peace and Love,
Julia Ashton-Sayers

36 Days to go – a long road to hoe

The gentle pitter patter on my window is delightful. This liquid gold is the perfect remedy for the dry and dusty drought ridden alpine region.

It’s a number nice day – a day of empowerment and resolution. Mercury goes retrograde today so it is a time to rethink propositions and carefully consider decisions before acting upon them. It’s funny but I don’t fear this phase instead I respect the backward movement of this tiny planet and capitalise on this time as a reflective period. With my Moon and Jupiter in Gemini in the ninth house I consider the retro-phase as a planning time rather than racing ahead making choices I may one day regret.

It is day VII of the detox and I feel fine – a little like the Beatles song, “baby’s in love with me and I feel fine.” My body is in acceptance mode, there doesn’t seem to be any real nagging complaints. The turmoil of the headache from hell has passed and I have a few strands of cotton-wool floating around in my skull. The benefit right now is the clarity of mind and the energy to get things done.

Yesterday for example I swear I piled three days of tasks into one small day – then went to bed early to linger in the quietness of my room. It was lovely to meditate and focus on my breath, see goals that I am working toward and envisage myself in my new wardrobe of clothes and how I will look.

Prometheus suggests going with the flow. The Universe is supporting this phase of elimination. The Devil stomps in and reminds me of my commitment to re-evaluate my choices – relinquish the bonds of fear and I will be set free. Hermes, my ally facilitates the awareness of my innate abilities and how they will carry me toward my destiny. I have all of the tools necessary to carve out a magical future.

The 42 day quest for detoxification and rejuvenation of my mind, body and spirit is underway. I have stepped over some road bumps and excavated a couple of pot holes but I am confident that I posses essential criteria for navigation and ultimately success. It’s a long road to hoe – but I’ve got the implements to go, go, go!

Peace and Love,

Julia

37 Days to go – Walking with the High Priestess

The Moon in Aries encourages motivation and childish enthusiasm. It’s a number eight day – a day of balance and harmony. Athena rules my inner realm with a detached demeanour offer the sword of discernment to cut away the superfluous.

The Food emerges from my weary body skipping toward destinations unknown. Funny thing is, I don’t really want to know the outcome as I am along for the ride.

Strength proposes courage to meet my personal goals and the dedication to the cause. Is it a “just cause?” I don’t know – I will tell you when I get there.

The energy of the morning is swirling and harmonious. I am spinning around and around participating in my own twirling game. My binoculars are locked on to a point off in the distance but there is no clarity – the lens is adjusted but still I can’t see the whole picture.

My world feels like the concept behind the Big Bang theory. Today I am holding a small crystal sphere in my palm – trying to gaze into it while trying to scribe the orb to predict the future.

Acceptances washes over me and I ease into my own nebula – full of gas and ready to form my own cosmos. The microscopic organisms reside in each cell ready to explode into orbit. Today I will immerse myself in the prospect of what will be while being profoundly grateful for where I am right now.

The power of Pluto in my mind zone refurbishes the wish list from beyond the mountains of fear and disappointment. He gazes into my soul and wraps his cape around me while we exchange conversations in silence.

Persephone takes my hand and gently guides me out of the cavern of solitude. The darkness is over and your consult with the Dark Lord is done. My world glows with a fresh perspective – the birth of a new day envelopes me in joy: http://members.iinet.net.au/~jcdewit/coolchick/goddesses.htm

The yard is white – Jack Frost has come to visit. While diamond duvets wrap around the tiny bulbs and flash across the delicate face of my pansies. The kiss from the icy goblin does not diminish their beauty.

It is a sleepy Sunday morning and I am excited about my current phase. The headaches and nausea of the past few days is melting away. The dilatants of distilled water and herbal teas made from pomegranate and gogi berries have flooded my digestive system with a positive force. Fresh unprocessed food have been munched and crunched revealing a new taste sensation with each conscious mouthful.

My day has been planned with a relaxing massage as the entre. The main course is to dwell with the interludes of my imagination. Dessert is the savouring the sweetness of my bliss of day six!

I stand strong in my personal power – with true power that comes with nothing from beyond my reach. So Be It!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

PS: Persephone represents change and transformation - a chameleon who can be whatever someone wants her to be. Out of all types, she is the most dependent on her parents or her lover and tends to need these relationships to feel safe. However, she usually undergoes a period of psychological distress at some point, which opens her up to be more independent, assertive, and enables her to inspire transformations in other people as well. http://www.okcupid.com/

38 Days to go – untangling the cotton wool head

The Empress and Emperor hold hands while the sun captures my crystals overhead. The rays shimmer into miniature rainbows across my page as I write.

The cotton-wool in my head is dissipating with the microfibers relinquishing the claws of coffee withdrawal. My thoughts are tinged with clarity and my sentences have forged ahead into the full stop – period. I want to savour this moment and yet I am berating myself for the coffee addiction and previous poor food choices.

Why have I allowed myself to gulp down oceans of coffee and masticate tonnes of food that was not good for me? I don’t want to sound pious but really – what was I thinking? Probably wasn’t really thinking at all. Why does it take us so long to realise we are poisoning our bodies with denial.

I can hear myself espouse parables of denunciation, “one slice won’t hurt!” or, “just one more”. I don’t know why I’ve done this to myself – my own plea in mitigation is that I am human and I bring all of my frailties and complexities to the dinner table.

I have chosen defiance and more excuses than enthusiasm as part of my daily rhetoric and motto. Now, the shadows of denial are shifting and I am dancing in the rainbows.

Today is a number seven day of inner reflection and searching for that inner wisdom (we are all meant to have). This philosophical sojourn is undertaken with the shovel of discernment.

It is Saturday and I am embracing the lustre of the morn – the freedom to spend some precious moments with me.

Question: does the romantic soul even grow up? Do we ever get passed the prospect of a happy ending? Why is a grown woman still yearning for the girl and boy living happily ever after scenario? Is this naive? My quest is to find the answer to these questions and more and get back to you.

Last night I had a dream about Severus Snape. I was in his classroom and there were snakes slithering around the floor. I was wearing a white satin nightgown and sitting cross legged on his desk. I offered him an apple and he glared at me and with a twinkle in his eye he turned the fruit into a bunch of flowers. He wrapped his cape around his body and I could hear him say, “I don't expect you will really understand the beauty of the softly simmering cauldron with its shimmering fumes, the delicate power of liquids that creep through human veins, bewitching the mind, ensnaring the senses.” I replied, “I thought I was here to learn the dark arts.”

Not sure what it means but interesting don’t you think?

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

39 Days to go – Sweet surrender

Day IV of the detox and I’ve just got off the scales and the result is mind blowing. I’ve lost 1.5 kilos in three days – woa! What headache? What nausea? What goodies did I have to give up? I don’t care with that result J Of course it’s not all about the weight loss but that is a pretty nice reward, isn’t it?

Yasmin Boland (http://www.yasminboland.com/) has suggested in her weekly column that we connect with Angels which align to the moon phase of the day. Today she offers the Angel in the early phase of Pisces: Eyael, Angel of Transformation. I am taking up Yasmin’s proposition and asking Eyael to guide and support me through my transformation.

It’s a number six day – a day of commitment and responsibility. I am aware that this program requires just that. The Moon is in Pisces and the Sun in Virgo. These two signs are the opposite end of the spectrum and offer a balance between reality and fantasy – noice.

My morning spread encourages creativity (The Moon); unexpected events (Tower) and an opportunity to slice away the unwanted kilos (Justice – the scales). Go figure.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

40 Days – up against it!

It’s the third day of my detox and I feel awful. The toxins are swirling around in my body scurrying to find an appropriate exit. I feel nauseated, blocked, grumpy and even teary. On the other hand I am enjoying the food I’m eating and the water and herbal teas I am drinking. I feel that with every conscious breath I am taking I am one step closer to my divine self.

It’s strange how the detox is taking over my life. The word detox and all of its repercussions and outcomes permeates my conversations. I’ve even noticed how my work colleagues are talking about detoxification – it’s downright contagious.

Honestly, between you and me I don’t think that the change in dietary regime or the commitment to a detox has formed a habit in my daily routine. However, I feel the pull of conscious living as an aphrodisiac to my future dedication. I have a feeling that during these six weeks it will not only be toxins that will be eliminated from my body there will be many other blockages tossed aside.

Even though I anguish over the loss of the smell of my morning brew all things considered I’m peaking over the crest of the first hurdle in this 42 day climb.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

41 Days – a realisation

It is a number four day perfect to lay foundations for the future. It is also another reality check day. Day 2 of the detox has given me some food for though – pardon the pun. Well actually it is not so much the food that I am craving – it is coffee. Yes, I feel as though I have the coffee monster within chanting – “I want coffee; coffee; coffee; coffee”. I have a blinding headache and my head feels like it has been inhabited by the cotton wool goblin. MoonHawk http://www.jestacom.biz/newsite/ezine/natural_living.htm has promised me that I will have clarity in the coming weeks and I guess that is what I am craving – the internal spring clean and the feeling of well being.

I’ve been concerned for a long time about my toxic living. It is not that I have many bad habits – I don’t smoke and I occasionally drink socially – the food I eat is healthy and I am consciously aware of my thoughts. What I crave most from the outcome of this program is a rite of passage for a healthier lifestyle.

Already, I’ve noticed subtle changes in my thoughts. Yesterday, I considered my reading material – I had some books that were given to me. They were a genre I had not read for some time. I read one book and the plot was predictable and frustrating as the main characters had not arrived at an obvious conclusion for many chapters. I thought, why am I reading these books if they are not giving me the information I desire or a positive buzz? I gave thanks for the opportunity to read them and I’ve packed them away.

Now, I’ve got my book, “Chiron: The rainbow bridge between the inner and outer planets”, by Barbara Hand Clow on my bedside table. This is the book I will indulge my senses in while relaxing.

As I was making these decisions about my reading material I thought that we form habits and daily rituals unconsciously watching TV or listening to music. Are they always good for us? Do they make us feel good or not so good? Now, is a time of making those conscious choices?

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

42 Days – a new beginning

It is the first day of Spring and to mark this season I’ve decided to rejuvenate my body with a three phased detox program. So, today is the first day of a 42 day commitment to detox my internal organs. This program has been designed by my herbalist, MoonHawk http://www.jestacom.biz/newsite/ezine/natural_living.htm and under her guidance I will tackle this six week program in a three-phased approach:

Stage: 1 – Remove unfriendly bacteria, yeasts, parasites that may be living in my digestive system (yuck).

Stage: 2 – Renew and repair my digestive lining and replace bad bacteria with beneficial ones called, “probiotics”.

Stage: 3 – Release – support and enhance the capacity of the liver to take wastes from the bloodstream, break them down and them remove them via the elimination system.

This commitment marks another healing journey for my transformation of health and wellbeing. The first phase to loose weight was undertaken 18 months ago. I’ve achieved that goal and feel fantastic for the drop in numerous dress sizes and numbers on the scales.

As an official start to the detox program I’ve got on the scales this morning. Alarmingly I’ve crept on a couple of kilos over the past few weeks. This is no surprise of course as I’ve had gormandised myself on the premise that, “I’m starting my detox so I will feast now and purge later!” Not real smart is it?

Of course there was a holiday last week and who can diet on holidays? Not me, obviously! Today is a reality check and I am going to own the numbers. The plan is to become healthier and drop a few kilos on the way – I will share these experiences with you in my journal.

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Moon in Sadge on Norfolk

Last night it rained on our island paradise. This morning the air is clear and fresh. The sky reveals a pallet awash with optimism anew.

Norfolk is aligned with Byron Bay (NSW) geographically. And it seems to be aligned spiritually also. The natural vistas are maintained by inhabitants’ that desire longevity wrapped in peace and harmony. This is a refreshing enclave and astounding in this modern era.

The economy of the island relies on tourism and yet the numbers of tourists are restricted. Of course there are few natural resources offered in trade but they too are carefully calculated and nurtured.

The quaint atmosphere has sustained a reputation for the geriatric visitor and that begs the question: Must we be older and wiser to enjoy the magnificence of historical evolution? Or do we become more captivated by our roots as we prepare to lie beside our ancestors in the ground?

I was warned prior to my departure from the mainland that Norfolk is for old people. After this visit I would debate that statement with vigour.

I reckon that Norfolk Island is for people who respect themselves enough to take time to nurture their spirit and who wish to reconnect with nature and honour their historical roots.

Perhaps we should take time to consider the lives of others who were forced into unspeakable circumstances and yet devoted themselves to carve out stately Georgian mansions for gentry to dwell. How can a man/woman serve another in shackles and still create the brilliance of architectural structures that stand the test of time – and more importantly, erosion.

If it is our older and wiser members of the tribe who fly over hear to soak up the ambience of paradise then I suppose the warning is appropriate.

The glow of philosophical strands from the Sadge moon envelope me in wisdom and reflection. I am whisked away on the energy of a number three day (intellect and short journeys) and consider my environment from a different perspective.

This is our second last day at our historical cottage retreat, Cobby’s Gen and I am aglow with a sated spirit and a peaceful soul. What price can you put on that? How much does hospitality cost? What is the going rate for the touches of elegance that make you feel like an Island Goddess? You will be amazed at the reasonable investment for the superb quality and benefit you’ll receive during your stay on Norfolk Island.

In the busy humdrum of our daily lives few miracles have an opportunity to manifest. For me, Norfolk Island has crept into my soul and has waved a wand of magic – priceless!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers

Messages from Norfolk

For years I’ve scribed my thoughts, emotions and ideas in my journal. The odyssey has taken a myriad of twists and turns each stretch and quake depicted in the style, tone and maturity (or lack thereof) of notions documented in countless paper tablets.

I’ve always written with integrity – divulged hidden crevices with the authenticity of my heart. My writing implements have remained sacred, pure and totally in my command. For example, my on-line journal has been published on the premise of self-promotion for my eBooks. I confess that the publications offer insight into the real woman behind the digital texts on offer at http://www.jestacom.biz/

While the journals are explicit and laced with a layer of ego they represent the ebb and flow of my emotional realm constantly under scrutiny of a curious and fickle intellect - the most pervasive aspects being; grammar, metaphor and ultimately – expression.

Over the past five days I’ve holidayed on Norfolk Island. The vacation has been a perfect blend of exploration, research, friendly encounters and most of all – healing outcrops of rest.

Norfolk Island emerged from the outpouring of two active volcanoes. Large pines (Norfolk pines) offer uniqueness to this subtropical land mass. Descendants of Indigenous Polynesians coupled with mutineers (from the Bounty) and ancestral ties to colonies past celebrate a colourful cultural hue, giving the island a society graced in good manners and a rare warmth and open-ness.

Daily excursions around the isle revealed a foreboding coastline. Azure blue lagoons have lured many a ship’s captain into a watery disappointment.

Norfolk Islanders are proud of their history – they celebrate the English settlements with respectful sentiment and an unwavering spirit. I can sense the pride in their voices as they recall the history and parables of oppression. Clearly the cycle of life is transparent as you observe the interactions between death and rebirth.

Deep ravines and grassy knolls atop plunging outcrops of basalt hang precariously over rocky gorges plummeting into the sea. Two small land masses in close proximity to the island have been named: Phillip and Nepean Island. These desolate islands are uninhabited except for a sanctuary for birds.

This retreat has offered time well spent being re-acquainted with my inner muse. This timeout reminds me of how long we’ve been apart. Nostalgia washes over me as I realise it has been days since our last intimate conversation. I’ve been absent in thought and word with my journal which feels almost like a “lapsed Catholic” avoiding the confessional.

This week the apprehension of our authentic conversations has passed. This retreat has given me the opportunity to reinvigorate my creative verve – time to breathe, to walk alone in green meadows alongside herds of contented cattle; paddling in crystal blue water and stomping golden sands trudged by unfortunate souls long passed. These moments have nurtured my spirit gently encouraging the whisper of my soul’s winsome narrative.

I’ve experienced many blessings during this past week. I’ve enjoyed an historical depiction of the birth of this tiny island. The Trial of the Fifteen was fantastic. This clever and creative account was acted in a professional manner by actors who took on the energy of each character with integrity and a flamboyant demeanour. The actors were fascinating and most of generous.

That generosity imbues this land cradling in pride and independence. Our Norfolk holiday has been a memorable interlude in the scrap book of vacations past. I know that Norfolk is not listed on the tem most exciting adventures around the globe. Although, what Norfolk lacks in excitement it more than compensates in a healing ardour. It is no wonder Colleen McCullough finds the solace and creative respite to communicate with her inner muse.

Now that the holiday is over the memories flash across my face in a wry smile. I am grateful for this retreat – for the gifts of their smiles and kind words that fall so effortlessly from the Norfolk Islanders mouths. While the hospitality is compelling the greatest gift I take with me from this tiny Island is the return to me!

Peace and Love,

Julia Ashton-Sayers